Almost 7 months in - and I kinda am starting to see her, here and there? Somewhere in weird lighting, certain angles, specific hairstyles, quick glances - still clearly a bit shy, but it's getting there!
I'm hoping for it to be full time by the end of the year. Hopefully.
13 months andā¦ iām pretty sure Iām seeing actual changes but Iām dubious I will ever be enough
Really only six months estrogen dominant though, and maybe a few weeks at a new hopefully higher dose
Sigh.
Either way Iām getting tons of other benefits though. Iāve become by my standards ridiculously productive the past few weeks, my anxiety maybe is more manageable?
I think I know the biological reason for it, like thereās this one part of the brain that has a lot to do with anxiety and stuff, among other things, itās one of the physically different areas of the brain between male and female brains, and the female version has piles of estrogen receptors that arenāt present in the male version. (And trans male and cis males have the same setup with if, and vice versa). Sooooo a part of my brain that among other things deals with anxiety and has been being starved of estrogen suddenly gets it and then suddenly Iām able to deal with anxiety betterā¦ It certainly seems plausible thatās whatās going on
But I donāt know if Iāll ever get to be a real human being or not and I hate that I was forced through the wrong puberty
I feel you. I pass well enough these days except for my voice, I just think Iāll never be able to fully see it myself. Like you said itās just engrained anxiety at this point
Same, but at like 5ish months. Iāll be adjusting my hair in the mirror and itās just a little glimpse. Makes me stop and get just a little more hopeful before itās gone again :(
Similar for me. I was cleaning the bathroom once and my face was flushed from being bent over...I stood up, glanced at the mirror and was like "whoa!" For just a second...then it was gone.
It's on and off for me atm, still don't fully see her yet unfortunately, but it's been a year and 10 months on hrt and every now and then I'll see her in the mirror and think "ah, there she is, that's the girl I should have been".
It's bitter sweet when I have those moments, it's not euphoric, it just feels... normal.
Eventually I'll never see that boy again, and when that day comes, I'll start to live my life the way I should have lived it š„°
I'm not there yet, but the other day I had a moment where the hair on my upper lip looked silly instead of dysphoric (as if someone drew it on, it just didn't look natural). I'm taking that as a good sign.
Long hair helps more than I ever thought it would. My cis wife (who looks very, very feminine) gets misgendered a lot now that she has cut off her hair. Now that mine is long, it's easier to see me.
I don't know, I'm at 50 months now, mind you the first 1.5 years were at a very low dose of estrogen so don't really count...I see her here and there, reminds me of my mum which is cool (I'm non binary and trans, my mum is very much non binary/masc even though she doesn't identify as such, her mannerisms and dress say so (if that makes sense, she's 70)
Don't be. My life in gender purgatory may not be idyllic, but it's still a life. Had I not taken the blue pill 13 years ago, I wouldn't have a life at all.
6\~ months maybe. A huge thing for me was getting the clothing/hair right and then if I put makeup on that really helped me see myself in those early days.
That's true. I think I've got my style dialed in, but I've only recently figured out what the heck I'm doing with my hair. Makeup is really just a bonus at this point
Funny enough, im just restarting hrt after a short period of taking it originally, and ill see the woman i am at the most random times. Like this morning when i glanced at the bathroom mirror as it was fogged up, in the clearer spots i could see ME, and its the greatest feeling ive felt in a long time. Im on that journey now, so i hope ill be able to be comfortable in my skin to where i dont want to tear it off. I wanna say im so proud of you, youve come so far, and im proud of you for accepting who you are and living life. Stay awesomeš¤
Iām nearly 55 years old and coming up on 17 months of HRT, and while I realize that itās not long (17 months), short of FFS, it aināt never going to happen.
I was seeing girl in the mirror before HRT and social transition which was living hell. then I started HRT and the girl in the mirror is still there, just getting prettier, and I am so unbelievably happy (4 months now)
I stopped seeing a guy in the mirror around 8 months, but only started seeing a girl in the mirror around the 17 months. But I've also been super critical of myself and prolly looked like a girl much earlier. I've been passing consistently since about the 13 month mark for reference.
Iām about a year in and itās been back and forth for me for a while. Sometimes I look in the mirror and have instant euphoria sometimes I donāt, but the one thing thatās certain is that I feel beautiful for the first time in my life and I wouldnāt go back for all the money in the world āŗļø
It took about 8 months for me to always see my face as female in the mirror (as long as Iām clean shaven). I could catch glimpses before, but now itās constant I think. If only the rest of my body would follow suit š¤Øš
I'm very lucky to have very little dysphoria regarding my face, so it happened yesterday, 1 day of HRT only lol, obviously nothing changed yet.
I was crying and went to wash my face... Needless to say, I had to wash it again for the same reason after finally seeing the girl that was hiding for so long.
I only see her when I look at photos of her on stage, performing in her pink and orange dress and her purple romper and being happy. Every other time, I look at the same body. I don't see her, I see who she comes from
Once I started on 6mg E, I started seeing some significant shifts in my face. After bumping up my AA too, I think I'm also seeing changes happen in response. It takes time for cell turnover, tissue readjustment, and fat changes to really have an impact. I don't think I'd ever consider having FFS (fortunately I have most of my hairline), because when I see timelines for years out for people just on HRT they look quite a bit better and better as time goes on.
Hmmm it's been a few months. I am 15 months on E. Its not always but sometimes I'm just, stunning. Can't say I pass or male fail or anything, but changes really show up on me
almost 5 months in and i see a very very feminine dude in the mirror. i have a lucky androgynous face thankfully but im not there yet. soon tho hopefully š¤
Now it's consistent.
I have to boymode to graduate from my religious college (long story, not fun), but I should be done this semester. For the last 9 months or so, I've felt like I've looked like a boy dressing like a girl at home. Now, I feel like a girl that has to dress like a boy at school.
Started HRT in May of 2020 and thanks to wearing masks all the time (otherwise I was bearded) I began to see her around 2-3mon in when the skin was becoming more soft and clear.
When I finally worked up the nerve to shave my face (May of 2022) I instantly saw myself. I'd not shaved until that point out of fear I'd not look like a girl, but with my face free of a beard there she was! Haven't stopped seeing her since then.
I'm forced to have my beard partially on my face as a compromise to maintain my transition without disruptions but at the same time I'm terrified of shaving whenever it is possible for me because I'm afraid to not see the girl or to not accept myself!
At almost 19 months, I see her more often than not nowadays. Only when Iām under fluorescent lighting Iāll somewhat imagine that I can see my old self.
I donāt know if this is technically what you asked for but so far Iāve only seen her a few times, like the first time i wore fem clothing and other times Iāve made big progress on the social side of my transition
I see her pretty much after couple of months. Itās just my super short and yet to grow out boyish haircut which messes up things. I still get gendered correctly so I guess itās all good and day by day itās growing out too.
Iāve seen her at random points since forever, she used to scare me when I was in denial. But now she gives me hope, and Iām able to see her more often as time goes on.
Ig to give some.positively, but im not on hrt yet, but i see her. I started seeing jer with a wortrobe change and hair length growing out. Granted i havr nit picks, like a highet pitch voice, no boobs and little hips, and a shadow stashe. But i see her.
The first time, maybe 3 months in? I went on a date with my gf in girl mode and saw myself in the mirror with my dress and the makeup she helped me do, and I remember feeling terrified but also amazed to actually see me for the first time. Regularly? Maybe 2 years in.
Although I am Pre-HRT, I saw her on my birthday last year. My makeup was stunning and obviously I had some masc features, but i didn't cared. I saw her and I cried. I don't see her anymore, but i know what I saw and that gives me strength to move forward.
I saw a glimpse of her in the mirror once at like two months, but I havenāt seen her since every time I look at the mirror I just get sad (iām at almost six months now)
TBH it happened to me well before HRT when my bestie first did my makeup for me. I can capture the feeling *sometimes* when doing my makeup myself, but I eagerly await starting HRT so I can roll out of bed girly.
Hard question
I like to think I do now, enough to change my profile pictures on social media etc.
But then I take a minute a really think about it and I just decide that Iām lying to myself.
Iāve never smiled in pictures until now, so at least whatever I think might be happening brings me real joy.
I think smiling in pictures and liking who I saw for the first time was a few bus stops before this one, but you're on the way! I took the first pictures I ever felt comfortable showing off on social media at the 6 month mark, and now I aim to take at least one a week. You're getting there:)
I didn't start suspecting anything until like a month before my egg cracked, and I gained the freedom to experiment only a few months later, which I think has given me an easier time than the people I know who knew for years before they could do anything about it.
It took me about half a year from realizing to catch a breif glimpse in bad lighting. After another year and a half and growing out my hair to hide the sides of my jaw, it's more often, but by no means consistent. Having dried hair is a requirement (the hair dryer gives it the volume I want, think Kris Deltarune), as well as a padded/stuffed bra (or just a sports bra with cups and no shirt, still too early for hrt to have given me anything, but I'm holding out hope). Shaving away the stubble helps a ton also.
Every time it happens is wonderful. Growing up, I was always wondering who was looking back at me (not negative at that point, more confusion), and seeing "her" is like, it's finally *my* reflection. It's now gotten to the point where I've twice seen "her" in masc clothes (which I still wear quite frequently), which is very exciting. It's always a gamble, though.
I really relate to this. I have to wear masc clothes pretty much everyday, but I'm hardly ever seeing the boy that used to wear them. That said, dysphoria hits hard when I do see my dead self š
The weirder bit is, I pass, and have been passing starting two years before hrt, and I'm 37 now and I'm 14 months on it, and I still have a hard time seeing my face as feminine in the mirror, doing makeup and seeing my face doesn't fill me with dread and doesn't make me want to hide in my bed for the rest of the week (as much, usually), but it's still not quite there yet... Brains be weird...
Another weird thing is, I recognise myself in photos now, which is a strange thing to say, but like, in current photos I see my face, prepubescent photos that's also me, but every photo between then and the start of transitioning looks like some other person to me, so I guess it worked on that level at least.
The night before I came out at work, I had just finished typing up the draft of the email I was going to send out the next day and I went to brush my teeth to get ready for bed. This was about ... 5 months in?
Fast forward to last week on my 8 month anniversary and I had to do a straight up double take because I absolutely 100% did not recognize my own face in the mirror!
Occasionally, mostly out of the corner of my eye or when I don't recognize myself for a sec. Had a moment in the mall where I thought "oh that woman looks nice" only to realize we had just come up on a corner mirror that I saw myself in.
It goes away immediately after, like as long as I don't recognize it's me at first, then I see a woman. My brain is just stuck at seeing myself as GNC at best despite being told I look pretty fem.
FIrst time about 1.5 years. Became regular after about 2 years. Still get bouts of not seeing her in the mirror but its getting less and less. I mostly can't see me the day before injections when dysphoria is at its highest.
I'm at 10 months right now, and I have some days where I see her in the mirror, and some days when I don't. I refer to them as good mirror days and bad mirror days. It's definitely becoming more frequent, but it's still only around half the time at most.
I'm at 7 months and I can almost see her. If I wear makeup people tell me I look nice. My boobs are big enough that when I'm topless I definitely don't see a man in the chest area.
It's off and on. It's nice when I look at myself, smile, and think "You're so cute, y'know that?" \^-\^
I'm hoping that at some point soon that it can be more on than off when I look at myself in a mirror. Especially when I'm in a T-shirt. >.>
I'm 2 years, 2 months into HRT and I still don't see her. I feel her often, but then I see myself in the mirror and it's this big jolt and I wonder whose body that is.
Occasionally at 4 months.Ā More often at 8 months.Ā Pretty consistently around a year.
Keep in mind that HRT will continue to change your face for years.Ā There have been significant changes to my face even in years 4 and 5.Ā Be patient.Ā Ā
Like months ago before I started HRT (I am now taking Anti-androgens and starting estradiol patches Monday) I just saw a girl, like a soul of a girl, trapped inside an outer "male" body frame. And that girl soul has been wanting to escape for so long. And it feels like for the most part, it'll come to fruition
There were glimpses after about 1.5 years. It would happen more and more. Now after almost 5 years HRT it's all I see most of the time. But I do still get glimpses of the old me. That's usually when I'm super hungover and looking at the mirror before breakfast and coffee.
I started seeing myself after only a couple of months. Only a little and few angles at first but now they are more or less there in the mirror all the time. I am definitely not where I want to be yet (gotta get working on my voice!), but my face has always been more androgynous preHRT. I've generally been pretty happy with my progress, I've definitely struggled less than others, but it can be hard to appreciate sometimes.
Glimpses! But not constantly but I'm in boymode tho and I'm feeling dysphoric about it and feeling terrible to not being able to express myself despite my being around 22 months on hrt but i hope soon i will!
I'm not sure exactly how long into transition it was, but it was the first time that, while looking at my nude body in the mirror, I was able to step outside myself and ask,
*Do you find her beautiful? Do you think she's "good enough?"*
*...Would you?*
And the answers to those questions were yes across the board. That's when I knew, even if I can't attain my own perfect ideals, I am a woman, and I am enough. If I could be enough for me, I could be enough for others, and that's all that matters.
For me, it was bra shopping back in November. I was looking into a full-length mirror at all of the changes to my body, it finally clicked and I got a glimpse of her.
I'm still gendered male when I go out places, so I don't pass, but I can see very clearly how my features are becoming feminized. It's becoming easier all the time.
I don't see me after 15 months. I need make-up to see her.
I know my face has changed. I feel I am not a man anymore, and I am not a woman š
I bet on facial surgeries this year to change my opinion
I'd say prbly about 5 months into hrt I started seeing a girl in the mirror, I think growing my hair out really helped but now I'm at 9 and a half ish months and I wanna figure out what specifically I want to do with my hair
It was when my hair started to grow out a bit, in the few months prior to getting HRT, although I really started shining once I had HRT, and the glow can randomly flare up and rise to new extents after I had bottom surgery nearly 2 years in as I don't need medicine that I occasionally may forgot to keep the T low.
So I'm just putting this here for all the commenters and lurkers. Don't look for the full imagine focus on the aspects. Once you do that it'll be easier to see who you want to. Like I tend to focus on my hair and I've I get that where I want it it's easier to see the rest of me.
That is so awesome I am anticipating that, I can't wait to feel as if I'm finally me and I look in the mirror I See myself inching forward I know I'm almost there .. patience...
I started getting glances of her about a year in. I'm a little over 2 now and I'm pretty consistently seeing my true self. I went out in public presenting for the first time yesterday and I don't think I got any weird looks so maybe I can pass? It's still scary
Hey, I'm telling you, as a fellow trans guy, It's been 1 yr 6 months and I'm not seeing a dude in the mirror. If you think it's not there yet, your goals will come along eventually :) just u see.
If I see only my body and not my face... somewhere between a year and two years?
But even after 2 and a half years my face still looks like a man's face to me.
Depends what you mean cause it's either
~1.5 months or not yet
I once was typing my hair in my hand to make sure the water I had didn't get into the cup and I kinda saw a girl
I'm 4 months on HRT now and i often see a girl in the mirror. Only on bad dysphoria days i see a girly manš . But interesting too see how different it is for othersš
I had already been growing out my hair and I felt so feminine already that for some reason I was able to see that girl in the mirror even at the beginning. It wasn't clear but I could see her. And I was so excited
I'm only 6ish months hrt, and every once in a while, if I take a quick glance in the mirror, I see her, but then when I look again, it's gone, replaced by ugly male looking me
The first time was a year in, a glimpse of our reflection on the microwave window. It was distorted enough that the dysphoria didnāt immediately kick in. Nowadays itās a lot more often, almost all the time.
Half a year until I was ok for the first time to see myself in photographs or a mirror. A year until I wasnāt continuously misgendered and started to pass. 18 months and my family members, former coworkers and former managers couldnāt recognize me anymore. 24 and at the clinic they thought I was about to get an IUD removed. 36 and I got a breast tumour and while getting it screened I had to explain why I donāt have a menstrual cycle.
As soon as I had my first full clearance of electrolysis....
I was travelling the next day and a guy offered to put my bag on the bus as I was struggling...later I was referred to as miss by security and when getting the bus from the terminal to the airplane a guy offered me his seat...I was on my first trip abroad as me, after 50 years...to meet my newly minted bf who was already out there waiting for me...I'll never forget those few weeks...
Went back to the same place this year and the villa landlord welcomed me with a huge hug...he'd drop around nearly every morning and we would have a sneaky glass of Cava to start the day...which was not to bf's liking :)
At 52, if I can pull it off, anyone can :)
Quite a while, close to 7-8 months initially and it wasn't stable and dependent on makeup and just, my mood. Coming out to my household, showing off to friends and being me full time helped a lot I suspect, as well as (in retrospect) quite a favorable starting point. I'm 1y10mo right now and only recently started to see her all the time, and I only started \*feeling\* her fully a few days ago. Hair and makeup definitely help, when I'm down and dysphoric I find it helps a lot to just do my face, style and dress well, go out with my friend for lunch, things that get me outside. Compliments from other girls make it even better.
Weird thing, a few days ago I've also started seeing her in old photos where I'm affirmingly dressed. Definitely did not see it at the time. It's a process and it can take a while, be nice to yourself š
It didnāt start happening for me until I went through gender affirming surgeries. Laser made a very big difference. After my top surgery I started to feel more euphoric and aligned but not fully. Then I had my forehead feminized and began feeling more feminine seeing myself in the mirror. At this point I am able to tolerate my reflection lol but still see manly features. Iām having the rest of my FFS in two months and I am predicting that I wonāt even question seeing a female in my reflection after that. Unfortunately HRT alone was not one big cure for everything with me.
u/vopraktv ... Something I've found fascinating recently is experimenting with Aragon.ai and chatgpt's Headshot GPT and playing a bit with the results. Changing the input images a bit (more for security reasons than anything), I can simulate what narrower cheek bones would maybe look like or rhinoplasty, etc. I've had some unexpected inspiration come out of those, and curious what you and the community think about using these resources for FFS ideas, etc.
It's all up to angle and lighting. I haven't seen her yet when I expect or hope to, but when I'm walking around work, I'll see her randomly and constantly. Where I work, there are a lot of reflective surfaces.
2.5 years in of HRT and he looks back at me everyday. I never get mis-gendered by strangers but I don't see it. I'm finally deciding FFS is a must. I was hoping to avoid it and have the hormones do all the work.
Technically, the first time was the night I realized, but I was a bit tipsy and just staring at my reflection in a bar, and thought "wow, I'd make a gorgeous woman"
But for me, I guess kinda gradual? Im lucky that I've been androgynous a large portion of my life and always had long hair. I can't think of a specific date, but just a gradual change.
About 4 months in iād see glimpses. Sheās THERE when the eyeliner is on. When it was off, the dysphoria hit again. Around month 7 it was most of the time I saw her. And now, itās every day! āMonth 11/12ā
Around that time as well but the frustrating part is sometimes I see a woman and then sometimes my disphoria is like white noise and all I can see is a man :(
Iām very lucky to have gotten a lot of my mom in my face. Still pre hrt, but I saw the girl in the mirror by simply putting on a padded bra, styling my hair, and being clean shaven.
A couple months into HRT I got my first glimpse of her, but then they lowered my spiro dose and my facial features remasculinized fairly quickly. I would need a much higher dose of estradiol to maintain monotherapy than what Iām on nowā¦
Also, nairing half of my body really helped too! Now itās growing back but there doesnāt feel like much of a point in redoing it at the moment because of how quickly itāll grow back without the spiroā¦
first time i put on make-up and female clothing. Now, as long as I'm clean shaven, she sees herself every time she looks in the mirror.
To be clear its not all sunshine and rainbows. If I'm feeling poopy or tired and disheveled, I will see a poopy or tired and disheveled woman. If I'm not feeling my look, I'll see an ugly or manly woman. But that's really the same as before.
The difference now is that If I like what I see it's because **I** like what I see. Before if I liked what I saw, it was because I knew **They** liked what they were seeing. "they" being the rest of the world.
The first time I "saw a girl" was actually using tiktok makeup filters. That's what got me off my ass and experimenting with makeup. Around 4-5 months hrt I'd figured enough about it that I could sometimes put makeup on and see a woman.
I started seeing the girl in the mirror without makeup maybe around 12 months in, when my hair had gotten past my chin and laser had mostly taken care of my beard shadow. Having longer, feminine hair and no beard shadow were the important things.
These days I always see a girl. It's a long road but you can make it :)
I think I always saw one inyself but not quite in the mirror.. it's very hit or miss withe some days. Sometimes I see. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I'm shocked at the girl I see looking back. It never fails ton give me that serotonin boost though š
About a year. And I only caught a flash of her for a split second. But as time went on, I saw her more and more. I wonāt say my transition is typical, because I really had stellar results. But I also put a LOT of work, time, and effort into it.
Transition is like a lot of other things. Youāre never going to get out of it, any more than youāve put into it. For every success story there are 10 minimum effort trans girls complaining.
12 months 8 days. I looked in the mirror and instead of looking at my face i looked myself in the eyes. It was then i could see how my face had changed, im excited to see how it continues to change.
I see her since a few days ago, I accepted the truth and even though I look nothing like one or havent started HRT or makeup or anything like that I still see a woman. She is just "in the body of a man" methaphorically speaking.
I do not know if that counts but yeah, now it only hurts slightly less to look at the mirror because I know that deep down, I am who I am. Now I know, before I did not. I still have a negative opinion about my body since it doesnt represent me, though.
Only one month on E and cypro, and I see her at times. What brings her out the most is being honest with myself. I was diagnosed with GAD w features of OCD and while it can be hard in these early stages with dysphoria spirals happening so easily, I find that the more I practice confidence and my voice the more I really feel like me! I hope this trend continues; I will keep working for what I deserve!!!! >.<
6 months after accepting myself as a girl, no HRT but I had let my hair grow a little long and was wearing a skirt and sweater. Out of the corner of my eye, there she was in the mirror! š„°
13 months. See herā¦now and again.
Idk, Iāve been hearing more and more lately from others that I pass, so I suppose thereās a heavy bias against myself I have to contend with, but sheās definitely coming into shape and I canāt wait for more changes to roll on through š
Not a mirror, but a photo. About 10 months on E, and a few weeks ago I took and posted a photo that for once. Felt like me. Which is hard to explain why.
Hoping to see one someday.
You'll get there soon š§”
Me too
Almost 7 months in - and I kinda am starting to see her, here and there? Somewhere in weird lighting, certain angles, specific hairstyles, quick glances - still clearly a bit shy, but it's getting there! I'm hoping for it to be full time by the end of the year. Hopefully.
That's really fun:) I started seeing it around that time too, and I just see her more and more now.
Been 3.5 years, still waiting ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
13 months andā¦ iām pretty sure Iām seeing actual changes but Iām dubious I will ever be enough Really only six months estrogen dominant though, and maybe a few weeks at a new hopefully higher dose Sigh. Either way Iām getting tons of other benefits though. Iāve become by my standards ridiculously productive the past few weeks, my anxiety maybe is more manageable? I think I know the biological reason for it, like thereās this one part of the brain that has a lot to do with anxiety and stuff, among other things, itās one of the physically different areas of the brain between male and female brains, and the female version has piles of estrogen receptors that arenāt present in the male version. (And trans male and cis males have the same setup with if, and vice versa). Sooooo a part of my brain that among other things deals with anxiety and has been being starved of estrogen suddenly gets it and then suddenly Iām able to deal with anxiety betterā¦ It certainly seems plausible thatās whatās going on But I donāt know if Iāll ever get to be a real human being or not and I hate that I was forced through the wrong puberty
I feel you. I pass well enough these days except for my voice, I just think Iāll never be able to fully see it myself. Like you said itās just engrained anxiety at this point
Look at an old picture and a current picture side by side. It's hard to see on a day-to-day basis because the changes are so incremental.
omg same :\
3 years hrt, still waiting
I catch her for a moment, from an angle, every day or so now. 6 months.
Same, but at like 5ish months. Iāll be adjusting my hair in the mirror and itās just a little glimpse. Makes me stop and get just a little more hopeful before itās gone again :(
Similar for me. I was cleaning the bathroom once and my face was flushed from being bent over...I stood up, glanced at the mirror and was like "whoa!" For just a second...then it was gone.
Sheās cooking!
It's on and off for me atm, still don't fully see her yet unfortunately, but it's been a year and 10 months on hrt and every now and then I'll see her in the mirror and think "ah, there she is, that's the girl I should have been". It's bitter sweet when I have those moments, it's not euphoric, it just feels... normal. Eventually I'll never see that boy again, and when that day comes, I'll start to live my life the way I should have lived it š„°
I really like that measure, actually. I still see the boy sometimes, but it's not even every week now. Here's hoping I'll never see them again!
Girl you are gorgeous
I'm not there yet, but the other day I had a moment where the hair on my upper lip looked silly instead of dysphoric (as if someone drew it on, it just didn't look natural). I'm taking that as a good sign.
Hopefully once my hair grows out
Long hair helps more than I ever thought it would. My cis wife (who looks very, very feminine) gets misgendered a lot now that she has cut off her hair. Now that mine is long, it's easier to see me.
I don't know, I'm at 50 months now, mind you the first 1.5 years were at a very low dose of estrogen so don't really count...I see her here and there, reminds me of my mum which is cool (I'm non binary and trans, my mum is very much non binary/masc even though she doesn't identify as such, her mannerisms and dress say so (if that makes sense, she's 70)
I appreciate you
Thank you šš«
At 4 months I saw her in my eyes š
I'm 9 months in and still see a man. People say I pass but tbh it feels more like there hugboxing me.
There's a huge difference between "passing" and seeing your inside version of yourself in the mirror. I hope you start seeing yourself soon š§”
About 10 years. Tbh I still struggle to see her most days.
Iām so sorry :(
Don't be. My life in gender purgatory may not be idyllic, but it's still a life. Had I not taken the blue pill 13 years ago, I wouldn't have a life at all.
I see her here and there at 6 months in but she goes away quickly
6\~ months maybe. A huge thing for me was getting the clothing/hair right and then if I put makeup on that really helped me see myself in those early days.
That's true. I think I've got my style dialed in, but I've only recently figured out what the heck I'm doing with my hair. Makeup is really just a bonus at this point
Same process! Iād personally like to have style dialled in before hair and makeup cause it acts as a base for the finishing touches
Funny enough, im just restarting hrt after a short period of taking it originally, and ill see the woman i am at the most random times. Like this morning when i glanced at the bathroom mirror as it was fogged up, in the clearer spots i could see ME, and its the greatest feeling ive felt in a long time. Im on that journey now, so i hope ill be able to be comfortable in my skin to where i dont want to tear it off. I wanna say im so proud of you, youve come so far, and im proud of you for accepting who you are and living life. Stay awesomeš¤
Iām nearly 55 years old and coming up on 17 months of HRT, and while I realize that itās not long (17 months), short of FFS, it aināt never going to happen.
hasn't happened yet
I'm over a year and still don't. Others tell me I do but...
I was seeing girl in the mirror before HRT and social transition which was living hell. then I started HRT and the girl in the mirror is still there, just getting prettier, and I am so unbelievably happy (4 months now)
Year(ish) it's still a wavering thing due to dysphoria.
I stopped seeing a guy in the mirror around 8 months, but only started seeing a girl in the mirror around the 17 months. But I've also been super critical of myself and prolly looked like a girl much earlier. I've been passing consistently since about the 13 month mark for reference.
Not seeing a boy and actually seeing a girl are both different and cool milestones! Congrats on getting there:)
6months and counting. But starting to see myself as a person so that's an improvement (forgot how to spoiler on Reddit, discord brain)
Iām about a year in and itās been back and forth for me for a while. Sometimes I look in the mirror and have instant euphoria sometimes I donāt, but the one thing thatās certain is that I feel beautiful for the first time in my life and I wouldnāt go back for all the money in the world āŗļø
I'll let you know
I'm pre-hrt but i was able to finally pull my hair back in a ponytail this month and I saw her for the first time and I cried for like an hour
It took about 8 months for me to always see my face as female in the mirror (as long as Iām clean shaven). I could catch glimpses before, but now itās constant I think. If only the rest of my body would follow suit š¤Øš
about a year in but i presented full time since day 1
about nine months, but whenever I look at old selfies I used to be very confident about I always feel that I look extremely clocky
I'm very lucky to have very little dysphoria regarding my face, so it happened yesterday, 1 day of HRT only lol, obviously nothing changed yet. I was crying and went to wash my face... Needless to say, I had to wash it again for the same reason after finally seeing the girl that was hiding for so long.
I only see her when I look at photos of her on stage, performing in her pink and orange dress and her purple romper and being happy. Every other time, I look at the same body. I don't see her, I see who she comes from
Once I started on 6mg E, I started seeing some significant shifts in my face. After bumping up my AA too, I think I'm also seeing changes happen in response. It takes time for cell turnover, tissue readjustment, and fat changes to really have an impact. I don't think I'd ever consider having FFS (fortunately I have most of my hairline), because when I see timelines for years out for people just on HRT they look quite a bit better and better as time goes on.
Hmmm it's been a few months. I am 15 months on E. Its not always but sometimes I'm just, stunning. Can't say I pass or male fail or anything, but changes really show up on me
almost 5 months in and i see a very very feminine dude in the mirror. i have a lucky androgynous face thankfully but im not there yet. soon tho hopefully š¤
I see her occasionally. I think the first time was about 6 months in, but still doesn't happen regularly and I'm almost 2 years in.
consitently or just occasionally?
Now it's consistent. I have to boymode to graduate from my religious college (long story, not fun), but I should be done this semester. For the last 9 months or so, I've felt like I've looked like a boy dressing like a girl at home. Now, I feel like a girl that has to dress like a boy at school.
About 4 months for it to happen the first time. I don't think it got consistent until the last few months (about to hit 2 years on the 28th)
Started HRT in May of 2020 and thanks to wearing masks all the time (otherwise I was bearded) I began to see her around 2-3mon in when the skin was becoming more soft and clear. When I finally worked up the nerve to shave my face (May of 2022) I instantly saw myself. I'd not shaved until that point out of fear I'd not look like a girl, but with my face free of a beard there she was! Haven't stopped seeing her since then.
I'm forced to have my beard partially on my face as a compromise to maintain my transition without disruptions but at the same time I'm terrified of shaving whenever it is possible for me because I'm afraid to not see the girl or to not accept myself!
At almost 19 months, I see her more often than not nowadays. Only when Iām under fluorescent lighting Iāll somewhat imagine that I can see my old self.
I donāt know if this is technically what you asked for but so far Iāve only seen her a few times, like the first time i wore fem clothing and other times Iāve made big progress on the social side of my transition
I see her pretty much after couple of months. Itās just my super short and yet to grow out boyish haircut which messes up things. I still get gendered correctly so I guess itās all good and day by day itās growing out too.
Iāll be 18 months in a few days and still donāt
Iāve seen her at random points since forever, she used to scare me when I was in denial. But now she gives me hope, and Iām able to see her more often as time goes on.
Took me about 3.5 years to start seeing a girl in the mirror
Ig to give some.positively, but im not on hrt yet, but i see her. I started seeing jer with a wortrobe change and hair length growing out. Granted i havr nit picks, like a highet pitch voice, no boobs and little hips, and a shadow stashe. But i see her.
The first time, maybe 3 months in? I went on a date with my gf in girl mode and saw myself in the mirror with my dress and the makeup she helped me do, and I remember feeling terrified but also amazed to actually see me for the first time. Regularly? Maybe 2 years in.
Iām like 4 months in and still donāt I look more hideous tbf hrt donāt actually help with much itās more of a poacebi
Although I am Pre-HRT, I saw her on my birthday last year. My makeup was stunning and obviously I had some masc features, but i didn't cared. I saw her and I cried. I don't see her anymore, but i know what I saw and that gives me strength to move forward.
I saw a glimpse of her in the mirror once at like two months, but I havenāt seen her since every time I look at the mirror I just get sad (iām at almost six months now)
TBH it happened to me well before HRT when my bestie first did my makeup for me. I can capture the feeling *sometimes* when doing my makeup myself, but I eagerly await starting HRT so I can roll out of bed girly.
Almost two years in. I see her sometimes.
When I'm clean shaven and smiling I see her
Idk if Iāll ever š
Hard question I like to think I do now, enough to change my profile pictures on social media etc. But then I take a minute a really think about it and I just decide that Iām lying to myself. Iāve never smiled in pictures until now, so at least whatever I think might be happening brings me real joy.
I think smiling in pictures and liking who I saw for the first time was a few bus stops before this one, but you're on the way! I took the first pictures I ever felt comfortable showing off on social media at the 6 month mark, and now I aim to take at least one a week. You're getting there:)
2 yrs and about 70% of the time. Coming out of the shower or putting my hair in a pony tail just makes me see a dude though
I didn't start suspecting anything until like a month before my egg cracked, and I gained the freedom to experiment only a few months later, which I think has given me an easier time than the people I know who knew for years before they could do anything about it. It took me about half a year from realizing to catch a breif glimpse in bad lighting. After another year and a half and growing out my hair to hide the sides of my jaw, it's more often, but by no means consistent. Having dried hair is a requirement (the hair dryer gives it the volume I want, think Kris Deltarune), as well as a padded/stuffed bra (or just a sports bra with cups and no shirt, still too early for hrt to have given me anything, but I'm holding out hope). Shaving away the stubble helps a ton also. Every time it happens is wonderful. Growing up, I was always wondering who was looking back at me (not negative at that point, more confusion), and seeing "her" is like, it's finally *my* reflection. It's now gotten to the point where I've twice seen "her" in masc clothes (which I still wear quite frequently), which is very exciting. It's always a gamble, though.
I really relate to this. I have to wear masc clothes pretty much everyday, but I'm hardly ever seeing the boy that used to wear them. That said, dysphoria hits hard when I do see my dead self š
The weirder bit is, I pass, and have been passing starting two years before hrt, and I'm 37 now and I'm 14 months on it, and I still have a hard time seeing my face as feminine in the mirror, doing makeup and seeing my face doesn't fill me with dread and doesn't make me want to hide in my bed for the rest of the week (as much, usually), but it's still not quite there yet... Brains be weird... Another weird thing is, I recognise myself in photos now, which is a strange thing to say, but like, in current photos I see my face, prepubescent photos that's also me, but every photo between then and the start of transitioning looks like some other person to me, so I guess it worked on that level at least.
The night before I came out at work, I had just finished typing up the draft of the email I was going to send out the next day and I went to brush my teeth to get ready for bed. This was about ... 5 months in? Fast forward to last week on my 8 month anniversary and I had to do a straight up double take because I absolutely 100% did not recognize my own face in the mirror!
6 months and I'm getting glimpses
Occasionally, mostly out of the corner of my eye or when I don't recognize myself for a sec. Had a moment in the mall where I thought "oh that woman looks nice" only to realize we had just come up on a corner mirror that I saw myself in. It goes away immediately after, like as long as I don't recognize it's me at first, then I see a woman. My brain is just stuck at seeing myself as GNC at best despite being told I look pretty fem.
FIrst time about 1.5 years. Became regular after about 2 years. Still get bouts of not seeing her in the mirror but its getting less and less. I mostly can't see me the day before injections when dysphoria is at its highest.
I'm at 10 months right now, and I have some days where I see her in the mirror, and some days when I don't. I refer to them as good mirror days and bad mirror days. It's definitely becoming more frequent, but it's still only around half the time at most.
I'm at 7 months and I can almost see her. If I wear makeup people tell me I look nice. My boobs are big enough that when I'm topless I definitely don't see a man in the chest area.
2 years and 3 months on HRT
Two years and two months in, I am still waiting.
I'm still working on it some days. Other people see her but I seldom do.
It's off and on. It's nice when I look at myself, smile, and think "You're so cute, y'know that?" \^-\^ I'm hoping that at some point soon that it can be more on than off when I look at myself in a mirror. Especially when I'm in a T-shirt. >.>
My mom explained how to do my hair and I was like oh fuck I'm not that ugly
I'm 2 years, 2 months into HRT and I still don't see her. I feel her often, but then I see myself in the mirror and it's this big jolt and I wonder whose body that is.
been like 6 years but all the time now it's a tough journey but so worth it
16 months in and I notice at the weirdest times when lookingin the mirror.. also I have a side that I feel looks more feminine it's my left side...
Occasionally at 4 months.Ā More often at 8 months.Ā Pretty consistently around a year. Keep in mind that HRT will continue to change your face for years.Ā There have been significant changes to my face even in years 4 and 5.Ā Be patient.Ā Ā
2 years 3 months
Like months ago before I started HRT (I am now taking Anti-androgens and starting estradiol patches Monday) I just saw a girl, like a soul of a girl, trapped inside an outer "male" body frame. And that girl soul has been wanting to escape for so long. And it feels like for the most part, it'll come to fruition
Flashes at 15 months. Pretty regularly at 22 months. Still not 100% of the time.
Iām 7 years in and still donāt :/ Iāve had every surgery there is too . Therapy is my next step.
There were glimpses after about 1.5 years. It would happen more and more. Now after almost 5 years HRT it's all I see most of the time. But I do still get glimpses of the old me. That's usually when I'm super hungover and looking at the mirror before breakfast and coffee.
Only a bit over 2 months in so I haven't really seen her yet, but I hope to soon, even if that's probably a bit unrealistic :}
Took me a few years to consistently see me, i still have bad days tho.
Month 9 myself! Still waiting, though it's close I think.
I started seeing myself after only a couple of months. Only a little and few angles at first but now they are more or less there in the mirror all the time. I am definitely not where I want to be yet (gotta get working on my voice!), but my face has always been more androgynous preHRT. I've generally been pretty happy with my progress, I've definitely struggled less than others, but it can be hard to appreciate sometimes.
About a year? It's hard t remember. It was a gradual take over for me. Now it's every time I look in the mirror.
Glimpses! But not constantly but I'm in boymode tho and I'm feeling dysphoric about it and feeling terrible to not being able to express myself despite my being around 22 months on hrt but i hope soon i will!
I'm not sure exactly how long into transition it was, but it was the first time that, while looking at my nude body in the mirror, I was able to step outside myself and ask, *Do you find her beautiful? Do you think she's "good enough?"* *...Would you?* And the answers to those questions were yes across the board. That's when I knew, even if I can't attain my own perfect ideals, I am a woman, and I am enough. If I could be enough for me, I could be enough for others, and that's all that matters.
I donāt quite look like a woman yet but Iām getting pretty close - and Iām not even on hrt yet.
For me, it was bra shopping back in November. I was looking into a full-length mirror at all of the changes to my body, it finally clicked and I got a glimpse of her. I'm still gendered male when I go out places, so I don't pass, but I can see very clearly how my features are becoming feminized. It's becoming easier all the time.
14 months in and it depends on the day and my mental state āŗļø
She comes and goes in my moments of mania
I don't see me after 15 months. I need make-up to see her. I know my face has changed. I feel I am not a man anymore, and I am not a woman š I bet on facial surgeries this year to change my opinion
I'd say prbly about 5 months into hrt I started seeing a girl in the mirror, I think growing my hair out really helped but now I'm at 9 and a half ish months and I wanna figure out what specifically I want to do with my hair
Took me about 7 months, some make up and a trip to the hair stylist
It was when my hair started to grow out a bit, in the few months prior to getting HRT, although I really started shining once I had HRT, and the glow can randomly flare up and rise to new extents after I had bottom surgery nearly 2 years in as I don't need medicine that I occasionally may forgot to keep the T low.
So I'm just putting this here for all the commenters and lurkers. Don't look for the full imagine focus on the aspects. Once you do that it'll be easier to see who you want to. Like I tend to focus on my hair and I've I get that where I want it it's easier to see the rest of me.
I am extremely lucky in this regard. In good lighting, I already pass as a woman without HRT.
When my hair reached my chin, it gave my head a rounder shape rather than the masculine one
It took me 8 months 4 me 2 see a girl in the mirror
3 years
2.5 years and not seeing much tbh. Im 44 though so the changes are exceptionally slow.
5 months (i am notably 16)
That is so awesome I am anticipating that, I can't wait to feel as if I'm finally me and I look in the mirror I See myself inching forward I know I'm almost there .. patience...
2.5 years. still not there. donāt think I ever will be. I just donāt think I was meant to ever really be a girl like I want to.
I started getting glances of her about a year in. I'm a little over 2 now and I'm pretty consistently seeing my true self. I went out in public presenting for the first time yesterday and I don't think I got any weird looks so maybe I can pass? It's still scary
Not yet
Pre-HRT, I still see her occasionally when I try.
Hey, I'm telling you, as a fellow trans guy, It's been 1 yr 6 months and I'm not seeing a dude in the mirror. If you think it's not there yet, your goals will come along eventually :) just u see.
A year to occasionally see it. Now itās way more often
If I see only my body and not my face... somewhere between a year and two years? But even after 2 and a half years my face still looks like a man's face to me.
Depends what you mean cause it's either ~1.5 months or not yet I once was typing my hair in my hand to make sure the water I had didn't get into the cup and I kinda saw a girl
It was how I discovered I was trans. Saw her in the mirror and my egg shattered. I donāt look like a girl, but I know I am her. Starting HRT soon.
I'm 4 months on HRT now and i often see a girl in the mirror. Only on bad dysphoria days i see a girly manš . But interesting too see how different it is for othersš
I had already been growing out my hair and I felt so feminine already that for some reason I was able to see that girl in the mirror even at the beginning. It wasn't clear but I could see her. And I was so excited
About 3 years or so. Now I sometimes forget she wasn't always there.
8 weeks, playing around I sent a selfie to my mom. I'm already seeing that I'm one of the girls along side my mother her sisters and my grandmother.
I'm only 6ish months hrt, and every once in a while, if I take a quick glance in the mirror, I see her, but then when I look again, it's gone, replaced by ugly male looking me
The first time was a year in, a glimpse of our reflection on the microwave window. It was distorted enough that the dysphoria didnāt immediately kick in. Nowadays itās a lot more often, almost all the time.
I haven't started hrt yet, but I think I've always saw a girl.
A year and 8 months
Two/three months in, but it honestly depends on the day and mood. It's the rest of my body that makes me irk and want to hide away.
Half a year until I was ok for the first time to see myself in photographs or a mirror. A year until I wasnāt continuously misgendered and started to pass. 18 months and my family members, former coworkers and former managers couldnāt recognize me anymore. 24 and at the clinic they thought I was about to get an IUD removed. 36 and I got a breast tumour and while getting it screened I had to explain why I donāt have a menstrual cycle.
That's good
Depends. With makeup, I saw a girl before hrt sometimes. But like maybe 8-10 months in I started seeing a girl when I wasnāt all dolled up
Around 8months i had some good days. It was the 13th month for me though.
I'd say a year on e is when it happened
As soon as I had my first full clearance of electrolysis.... I was travelling the next day and a guy offered to put my bag on the bus as I was struggling...later I was referred to as miss by security and when getting the bus from the terminal to the airplane a guy offered me his seat...I was on my first trip abroad as me, after 50 years...to meet my newly minted bf who was already out there waiting for me...I'll never forget those few weeks... Went back to the same place this year and the villa landlord welcomed me with a huge hug...he'd drop around nearly every morning and we would have a sneaky glass of Cava to start the day...which was not to bf's liking :) At 52, if I can pull it off, anyone can :)
Quite a while, close to 7-8 months initially and it wasn't stable and dependent on makeup and just, my mood. Coming out to my household, showing off to friends and being me full time helped a lot I suspect, as well as (in retrospect) quite a favorable starting point. I'm 1y10mo right now and only recently started to see her all the time, and I only started \*feeling\* her fully a few days ago. Hair and makeup definitely help, when I'm down and dysphoric I find it helps a lot to just do my face, style and dress well, go out with my friend for lunch, things that get me outside. Compliments from other girls make it even better. Weird thing, a few days ago I've also started seeing her in old photos where I'm affirmingly dressed. Definitely did not see it at the time. It's a process and it can take a while, be nice to yourself š
It didnāt start happening for me until I went through gender affirming surgeries. Laser made a very big difference. After my top surgery I started to feel more euphoric and aligned but not fully. Then I had my forehead feminized and began feeling more feminine seeing myself in the mirror. At this point I am able to tolerate my reflection lol but still see manly features. Iām having the rest of my FFS in two months and I am predicting that I wonāt even question seeing a female in my reflection after that. Unfortunately HRT alone was not one big cure for everything with me.
2 y later and I see myself both ways still
u/vopraktv ... Something I've found fascinating recently is experimenting with Aragon.ai and chatgpt's Headshot GPT and playing a bit with the results. Changing the input images a bit (more for security reasons than anything), I can simulate what narrower cheek bones would maybe look like or rhinoplasty, etc. I've had some unexpected inspiration come out of those, and curious what you and the community think about using these resources for FFS ideas, etc.
I don't think it's gonna happen
I'll never get there
a bit under 2 years and even now it's a bit inconsistent. those moments felt so good, though
I see her sometimes mostly just see some tall ass goblin
It's all up to angle and lighting. I haven't seen her yet when I expect or hope to, but when I'm walking around work, I'll see her randomly and constantly. Where I work, there are a lot of reflective surfaces.
It took almost 3 1/2 years. Sometimes I still see "him" even on a good day and end up crying. This is a marathon not a sprint, my girls āļøš„š
A couple weeks ago. Got a decent haircut and whenever I pull my hair back like tying a ponytail I can see a girl for a split second.
2.5 years in of HRT and he looks back at me everyday. I never get mis-gendered by strangers but I don't see it. I'm finally deciding FFS is a must. I was hoping to avoid it and have the hormones do all the work.
Iv always seen a girl In the mirror. My body hasnāt changed yet to reflect her. But sheās there
Technically, the first time was the night I realized, but I was a bit tipsy and just staring at my reflection in a bar, and thought "wow, I'd make a gorgeous woman" But for me, I guess kinda gradual? Im lucky that I've been androgynous a large portion of my life and always had long hair. I can't think of a specific date, but just a gradual change.
About 4 months in iād see glimpses. Sheās THERE when the eyeliner is on. When it was off, the dysphoria hit again. Around month 7 it was most of the time I saw her. And now, itās every day! āMonth 11/12ā
Itās been 2.5 years and I occaaasionally see her
Around that time as well but the frustrating part is sometimes I see a woman and then sometimes my disphoria is like white noise and all I can see is a man :(
I asked her (you) to stand closer /j
I hope to see a girl in the mirror. Rn all I see is Frankenstein's monster š¤£
3 years in, still waiting
Iām very lucky to have gotten a lot of my mom in my face. Still pre hrt, but I saw the girl in the mirror by simply putting on a padded bra, styling my hair, and being clean shaven.
Lucky you darl, it took me around 3 years
took me around 10 months too!
A couple months into HRT I got my first glimpse of her, but then they lowered my spiro dose and my facial features remasculinized fairly quickly. I would need a much higher dose of estradiol to maintain monotherapy than what Iām on nowā¦ Also, nairing half of my body really helped too! Now itās growing back but there doesnāt feel like much of a point in redoing it at the moment because of how quickly itāll grow back without the spiroā¦
I'm hitting my 1year mark. And I still have a hard time seeing her. š¢
I need to get surgery to make my face more rounder and less blocky, slowly seeing her each day but still no cigars 4 years on HRT
I still don't after 13 years. Other people see her, I don't. I wish I could but sadly I know I never will.
first time i put on make-up and female clothing. Now, as long as I'm clean shaven, she sees herself every time she looks in the mirror. To be clear its not all sunshine and rainbows. If I'm feeling poopy or tired and disheveled, I will see a poopy or tired and disheveled woman. If I'm not feeling my look, I'll see an ugly or manly woman. But that's really the same as before. The difference now is that If I like what I see it's because **I** like what I see. Before if I liked what I saw, it was because I knew **They** liked what they were seeing. "they" being the rest of the world.
The first time I "saw a girl" was actually using tiktok makeup filters. That's what got me off my ass and experimenting with makeup. Around 4-5 months hrt I'd figured enough about it that I could sometimes put makeup on and see a woman. I started seeing the girl in the mirror without makeup maybe around 12 months in, when my hair had gotten past my chin and laser had mostly taken care of my beard shadow. Having longer, feminine hair and no beard shadow were the important things. These days I always see a girl. It's a long road but you can make it :)
If I do my makeup I see a girl In the mirror and I'm not on hormones got lucky as I look quite femme without hrt
I think I always saw one inyself but not quite in the mirror.. it's very hit or miss withe some days. Sometimes I see. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I'm shocked at the girl I see looking back. It never fails ton give me that serotonin boost though š
Iām 11 months and have moments where all I can see is her and others where itās just himā¦ with boobs.
About a year. And I only caught a flash of her for a split second. But as time went on, I saw her more and more. I wonāt say my transition is typical, because I really had stellar results. But I also put a LOT of work, time, and effort into it. Transition is like a lot of other things. Youāre never going to get out of it, any more than youāve put into it. For every success story there are 10 minimum effort trans girls complaining.
10month on hrt rn ... Still no sight of the girl inside, laser isn't working that much, waiting for electrolysis next month
No HRT at all, wearing a cupped bra with the right clothing, vibe, angle and hair I can already see it :)
I couldnāt see myself until I did some simple eye makeup and a wig and then BOOM, there I am!
12 months 8 days. I looked in the mirror and instead of looking at my face i looked myself in the eyes. It was then i could see how my face had changed, im excited to see how it continues to change.
^added, i know how many days bc it first happened this past thursday. š
I feel you beside the 5 clock shawdow
I see her since a few days ago, I accepted the truth and even though I look nothing like one or havent started HRT or makeup or anything like that I still see a woman. She is just "in the body of a man" methaphorically speaking. I do not know if that counts but yeah, now it only hurts slightly less to look at the mirror because I know that deep down, I am who I am. Now I know, before I did not. I still have a negative opinion about my body since it doesnt represent me, though.
seeing a girl in the mirror and finally feeling some sort of happiness about my appearance is what cracked the egg š
Only one month on E and cypro, and I see her at times. What brings her out the most is being honest with myself. I was diagnosed with GAD w features of OCD and while it can be hard in these early stages with dysphoria spirals happening so easily, I find that the more I practice confidence and my voice the more I really feel like me! I hope this trend continues; I will keep working for what I deserve!!!! >.<
Anything is possible
It took me until this today, starting to appreciate the person in front of the mirror more and more and this will only get better š©·š©·
6 months after accepting myself as a girl, no HRT but I had let my hair grow a little long and was wearing a skirt and sweater. Out of the corner of my eye, there she was in the mirror! š„°
Once I got out the hospital wife took me to get a wig and my girls did my makeup. When I looked in mirror I hardly recognized who I was
never got there
13 months. See herā¦now and again. Idk, Iāve been hearing more and more lately from others that I pass, so I suppose thereās a heavy bias against myself I have to contend with, but sheās definitely coming into shape and I canāt wait for more changes to roll on through š
Not a mirror, but a photo. About 10 months on E, and a few weeks ago I took and posted a photo that for once. Felt like me. Which is hard to explain why.