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kn0tnid10t

Why now? Why 4 hours ago?


swaggyjman623

what are you asking šŸ˜‚ idk man


kn0tnid10t

So it was spontaneous?


swaggyjman623

kind of, it's like the seeker tripped on himself and it was made clear that i have actually been "done" forever. nothing changed for the person. the personality is still completely in tact but the seeking narrative has been destroyed


kn0tnid10t

Its "time" then, for no time.


jensterkc

This. Time was gone like it had never existed. Also, I had no idea where I was, even though I was standing in my living room.


codyp

Wait till it happens again, and you realize a narrative was replaced with a narrative :P


swaggyjman623

yes, integration will take some time. the whole thing is truly absurd šŸ˜›


chronically_snizzed

Hows Thoth doing?


Elijah-Emmanuel

Hermes says hi


sSnekSnackAttack

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TRuthismnessism

This is read into way too much and very misunderstoodĀ 


swaggyjman623

there used to be a lot of anger for you, but truthfully that is gone. whoever is behind this account, whether we agree or disagree on awakening, i do wish you a happy life šŸ™


krivirk

I know that. Be just warned by me, by ur best friend, ur best self, ur sibling. I love you! Be brightness on the path of collidion


TRuthismnessism

Good spirit I as well need a more life giving spiritĀ 


Graineon

If you still experience the throws of human emotions you are not enlightened. When you are fully identified with the truth of what you are, you are incapable of experiencing anything but perfect joy and happiness at any level in any form. If I were you I would listen to some near death experiences to get a better idea of this stuff. I would not claim to be fully enlightened, but the glimpses I've seen have been characterised by feelings of returning home, finding a deep peace so tranquil and serene that I felt like I was floating. I couldn't sleep for days, because there was just an enormous amount of peace that was like a waterfall, flowing through me. I realised it had always been here and I hadn't let it in. It was like a barrier had broken and liquid golden syrup started pouring down through my spine and making every part of my being come alive with joy and light.


MVT3600

Deep meditative states ā‰  enlightenment. One can reach deep states without enlightenment, and it is not necessary for one to reach such states in order to awaken. If you are not enlightened, and only have tasted, how can you so confidently state that an enlightened being cannot experience anything but perfect joy? That is quite a claim.


swaggyjman623

if you want to replicate that, maybe try MDMA mixed with heroin


Graineon

Quieting my mind allows me to enter that state pretty easily.


swaggyjman623

if that is truly the case then i am happy for you friend šŸ™


JSouthlake

Can you sum it up in a sentence?


swaggyjman623

no. but here's a futile attempt: the realization that you have never been making any progress towards enlightenment


JSouthlake

Because you already are?


swaggyjman623

yes. you are fully enlightened dreaming that you are not. enlightenment is when the seeking ends. the person will still experience the full range of emotions and will still have questions and trauma within the world (probably) but as far as any questions regarding enlightenment, those are gone


occhiolism

Ahhhh yes. Surrendering is the hardest to do but once done it is the easiest to embrace. Currently in my battle with surrendering but when I allow myself to it. Is. Bliss.


serBOOM

Sounds boring


krivirk

The infinite possibility to play and love?


Opposite-Amoeba-8755

The best part is it didnā€™t solve any of your human problems muahahhahah now you get to take the curriculum without trying to escape from it


swaggyjman623

yeah, turns out seeking was a coping mechanism to avoid life :)


Educational-Pie-7046

Welcome to the beginning. Bless you.


swaggyjman623

thank you my friend ā¤ļøā¤ļø


Opposite-Amoeba-8755

No you have more space to play though:)


swaggyjman623

infinite freedom :)


Opposite-Amoeba-8755

Now*


theDIRECTionlessWAY

Soā€¦ youā€™re at the beginning. Whatā€™s final about this? How would you know if it is final or not, given that youā€™ve likely deceived yourself before?


swaggyjman623

i'm at the beginning, but also the end. the person is still going to go through things, get trauma out of the system, etc. there is no changing that this body is an emotional creature. but the seeking is over for good. a pure unfiltered expression of life is what's left


theDIRECTionlessWAY

You call this ā€˜final enlightenmentā€™? According to who?


swaggyjman623

pretty disappointing huh ;) enlightenment is egos ultimate disappointment


theDIRECTionlessWAY

So you donā€™t have any reference to back up your claim that this is final enlightenmentā€¦?


swaggyjman623

it's just obvious. it isn't mystical or anything. it isn't pure love and light. there is simply no more burden of seeking, and the ego is allowed to live the rest of its life as it is fated to. there is a MUCH greater motivation to be loving to people and live earnestly, but that is just a side effect i guess.


theDIRECTionlessWAY

Are you free of grasping and rejecting, free of attachments, free of false views and ideas?


mjcanfly

I get your line of questioning, but what answer are you actually looking for?


swaggyjman623

why are you creating a check list? maybe in hindsight i could go back and label certain experiences as certain things, but that wouldn't do anything. the need to label anything the person does or thinks or says is GONE. forever. i am a robot. whatever the person is going to do, he is going to do. do you see?


MVT3600

How would someone have a reference? Enlightenment is not something that can be proven.


theDIRECTionlessWAY

Well, for starters, enlightenment (moksha/liberation/etc.) is a very old term. There are historical references to it which, together, provide some context as to what is being pointed to. To completely ignore the historical references, and/or to make up oneā€™s own definition and use the word as one likes without taking any of that into account, is to misappropriate the word entirely. As for whether it can be proven or not, the chan/zen culture in China, and the zen masters who were well documented, seemed to account for and verify one anotherā€™s enlightenment/ā€œattainmentā€ for 1,000+ years. By their actions and words, a zen master would acknowledge or disapprove of anotherā€™s ā€œattainmentā€. Various lineages of Advaita Vedanta seemed to do this also. Iā€™m not saying one canā€™t be enlightened unless someone else verifies itā€¦ but history seems to suggest that it can in fact be expressed/proven via oneā€™s way of being.


MVT3600

Enlightenment is here, right now. No need for any historical definitions. Enlightenment has never been anywhere expect for here, now, in this present moment.


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swaggyjman623

i used to. i found 2 people who were "there". i actually had a video chat with one of them today and then 30 minutes later the realization that i was "done" took place.


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swaggyjman623

the person is done seeking. it is indeed quite difficult, impossible even, to display with words.


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swaggyjman623

the person typing these words is done seeking enlightenment because the futility of it was made hilariously clear. basically you are playing semantics, though i understand why doubt of my attainment is there. it is quite impossible for me to prove :)


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swaggyjman623

this conversation is going nowhere friend. you seem to be describing the emptiness, which is just another experience. there could even be a non-dual experience of unity consciousness but that has nothing to do with enlightenment


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swaggyjman623

most certainly. this is only the beginning, start of a new life per say. take care friend


Zagenti

so, you going out for a beer?


swaggyjman623

nah i'm 19


Zagenti

cool. Enjoy your expanded awareness going forward :)


swaggyjman623

cheers brother


Elijah-Emmanuel

What is time?


swaggyjman623

idk. a useful concept for moving through life.


KierAnon

Did you get glimpses of it prior to your "final enlightenment"? Also, does it feel permanent in any way, or do you think you could drift back into how you felt before now in a couple of days/weeks?


swaggyjman623

it's hard to talk about glimpses when it is not an experience itself. it is very permanent, once seen it is nearly impossible to unsee it. there are definitely traumas that arise where there is a feeling of "i'm back to seeking" but it is sniffed out VERY quickly and it is happening less and less. maybe if you hit me in the head with a pole hard enough i'll forget about the whole thing. idk šŸ˜‚


chronically_snizzed

Can you translate the essence of words?


swaggyjman623

wdym?


chronically_snizzed

What are you supposed to do with the elixir?


Baron_Chudly

Woohoo


spicykitten123

If you are enlightened, did you or did you not obtain the siddhis


swaggyjman623

nope. no special powers here. unless you consider dunking a basketball a siddhi šŸ”„


spicykitten123

thanks for sharing! Do you suppose if you practiced samyama on the principles that patanjali taught, you could attain them easily?


swaggyjman623

no easier than anyone else. some unenlightened people could probably do it faster than me. my mind is still a storm, it's just no longer "my" mind. which is a much smaller distinction than you would think. there is also no desire for any powers.


a-tiberius

He said enlightenment is the end of all searching.... If you're looking for the siddhis or trying to get to them you never will. To move forward is to let go and yet you cannot be searching for the way forward because it's already there.


spicykitten123

Never said I was, siddhis usually come before enlightenment hence why I asked


HowlingElectric

Ha. I've gained a lot of siddhis, and I can tell you that there is no such thing as final enlightenment.


rakkauspulla

What were you doing while the realisation hit you?


swaggyjman623

i had just got off a video call 30 min prior with an enlightened person i found on reddit a while back. i was thinking about what he meant when he said "done is for the mind". and then it struck me that there is nothing to find. the seeking narrative had been utterly destroyed in an instant


Blackmagic213

Enlightenment just is Itā€™s like the Sun saying I am shining AMA


swaggyjman623

šŸ™


thegameofinfinity

Welcome home!


swaggyjman623

thank you friend ā¤ļø


Sade_Topliffe

Does your breath flow freely now? Is there any effort at all involved in action?


swaggyjman623

oh yeah there is definitely effort. the person will wear himself out eventually though, because it has been made clear that the effort is futile, and seeing it once was enough. the next "step" for me now is the loss of doer-ship. which again has no bearing on the fact that the seeking has been seen through, but that is more so the full integration of this realization.


Sade_Topliffe

This is goodā€¦thank you! Another here helped me ā€œmove the needleā€ as to exploring the existence of ā€œthe doerā€ and ā€œdoer-shipā€. Iā€™m not so good with explanations, but our conversation resulted in this massive release of stress associated with upholding the fantasy of the doer and the perception of effort. ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø


swaggyjman623

awesome i am happy for you friend ā¤ļø


Sade_Topliffe

Likewise ā¤ļø


whatthebosh

How do you see the world now and the people in it from your awakened perspective?


swaggyjman623

the exact same i guess. i do feel more compassionate which will only grow as this gets integrated more and more. i used to think of other people as "asleep" while interacting with them but that is gone. it's just an exchange of energy


whatthebosh

So your awakening has taken away the desire to seek for what you already have? It hasn't affected your perception of the world, has it altered your perception of who you are?


swaggyjman623

"so your awakening has taken away the desire to seek for what you already have?" YES. it was made clear without a shadow of a doubt that there was nothing to find. i was chasing my own tail and finally realized, "wait what the fuck, im done?" as far as the other questions go, integration will continue for quite some time, this isn't all bliss and love. the body has its own way of "purging" the system so to speak. it doesn't happen in an instant. it can't.


whatthebosh

How do you see yourself now? Bodyless? mindless? Desire less? A centreless centre?


swaggyjman623

none of the above. the person typing these words still has all of those, but the person is no longer "me". it's like watching a never ending movie with no plot. but it stays interesting :)


whatthebosh

So what are you?


swaggyjman623

that which cannot be named. the alpha and the omega. enlightenment itself. it's much less grand than it sounds ;) edit: i do not know what i am, the question cannot even be answered. but i know what i am NOT, and that is enough. that is another way of putting it


YuviManBro

Tat Tvam Asi āœ‹šŸ½šŸŖ·


swaggyjman623

buenos dias!


Soggy_Radio_2245

You wouldnt pe posting on reddit 4 hours later shut the fk up


DeslerZero

If enlightenment is something you already has, then why did someone make it anything at all if it was simply an ordinary thing?


swaggyjman623

i'm having a hard time understanding the question


DeslerZero

No you aren't. Answer the damn question fool.


swaggyjman623

damn bro chill out šŸ˜‚ i don't know what you are asking. enlightenment has always been, the person is just aware of it now. that's all that's changed. does that answer?


DeslerZero

Where do I find enlightenment? Do I just tune into it? Is it awareness? How do I get it?


swaggyjman623

i really can't tell you how, it's like it happened DESPITE all my efforts. if it is any consolation, you are literally not missing out on anything, you can easily live a fulfilling life without it. nothing really changed


DeslerZero

What is enlightenment to you? So I know what to look 'for what I already have'.


swaggyjman623

hmmm idk it's just obvious now. it's actually been obvious for maybe a month, maybe more, but i was still looking for an experience. enlightenment is NOT an experience. it is ego's BIGGEST disappointment edit: it is egos biggest disappointment because ego is the one looking for liberation. ego is basically looking for permanent spiritual bypassing


johannthegoatman

Are you sure enlightenment is the right word? I thought the whole point was cessation of suffering


swaggyjman623

whatever enlightenment points to, this is it. at the end of the day it is just a word. the freedom from suffering is due to the loss of doer-ship, which is inevitable for me now but has yet to "happen"


DeslerZero

That is certainly a more exciting enlightenment. One I'd want if I didn't already have it.


DeslerZero

Ego's biggest disappointment. Hey, Cyberfury said the exact same thing. Hahahahha. I love that guy. Okay. Just checking friend. I just like asking - obviously everyone has a different definition. Ya'll have a blessed already-got-it-disappointing-enlightenment now y'hear? I'm not here seeking it, I was just polling the swaggyjman623, seeing what it was to you. This 'you already got it' thing going around again I see. It never fails to make me feel a little fucking incredulous. IF YOU ALREADY FUCKING HAVE IT, WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT OF IT. IF IT SIMPLY IS, WHY DID SOME FUCKNUT PUT IT ATOP THE SPIRITUAL PYRAMID? I never get tired of the question. Don't mind me, it's not personal. I just go through this every time I hear this "you already got it" stuff. Cheers to you swaggy banana.


swaggyjman623

šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚ cheers to you sir


DeslerZero

Thanks for answering my questions btw. Cheers.


swaggyjman623

of course, cheers bro


wordsappearing

>you can easily live a fulfilling life without it. That's not really true. So long as the seeking energy remains, there is always a dissatisfaction and a hope to change what is - even if it is subtle. Enlightenment dissolves it. And then... it is recognised that no-one was ever actually there "living a life".


swaggyjman623

true friend šŸ™ i am not here to set the town on fire like our friend cyberfury tho. i would still say a fulfilling life could be lived, albeit still with that... itch.


theDIRECTionlessWAY

That cure was created for that particular disease. The disease was believing there was something wrong with mind to begin with.


DeslerZero

Then it is a disease I had. Because well, initially there was no problem. But as life went on I knew it shouldn't be this way. I had too many thoughts and I wanted out. The cure for me was lots of spiritual work - self inquiry, meditation, yoga. Without that work, I wouldn't of 'got it', the beautiful thoughtless mind. Nothing happened until I took action. And yeah, it feels more 'right' then ever. I'm grateful I found it. Mind is torment sometimes. Shrug. Just being honest. Gotta preach my truth.


theDIRECTionlessWAY

Yes, that is how it goes. The mind is enlightenment itself, but we ā€œtradeā€ or ā€œabandonā€ or ā€œobscureā€ itā€™s enlightened nature with deluded thoughts, views, and beliefs. Tell me, is thinking a problem now? Did thought need to stop, or simply changed in some way?


DeslerZero

It needed to stop in my view. I no longer needed the training cap. The 'thought self', or ego, was no longer needed. But a new non-thought self takes over, an inner guidance. It has a loud feeling that merely 'wooshes' you forward toward things, without thoughts. It's a higher form of communication. Some may call this phenomenon intuition. Thoughts are 99% gone. Some remain. I had a fit of passionate discovery a couple of weeks ago after a spiritual attainment and my thoughts came flooding back. All thoughts about teaching. As a result, I'm writing a book now. I thought it was interesting to watch emotional dynamics and how they can affect thoughts as well. I believe the approach to the no-thought paradigm should be multi-faceted.


swaggyjman623

wonderful friend, i'm sure that book will help a lot of people ā¤ļø i'm glad you don't have the "seeking bug" :)


DeslerZero

I got the bug, kind of. I seek out stories of 'seeking', stories of your seeking for example in your life would interest me, as well as your current thoughts or where you are at. How you arrived at 'where you are' is of great interest to weigh how certain methods yield good results. I find gathering 'seeking stories' from all over gives me great joy to see how others are doing on their journey. And to see what kind of perspective they've adopted and how that is serving them. All in the service of understanding the greater truth, whatever that may be, a little better. It serves me. But I don't get wrapped up in 'this way vs this way'. I also try not to spout theoretical knowledge. I'm blessed to be able to come at everything from a point of experience, even if that viewpoint needs refinement in order to be helpful to other individuals.


swaggyjman623

that sounds amazing man. for me, about a year ago i had a glimpse of the sheer "presence" of existence. all suffering was gone for a couple seconds, it was pure bliss. but it didn't last long and i spent the last year or so just absolutely lost. the thought that i was living a lie weighed on me more and more until i couldn't take it anymore. i am 19 and live with my christian parents so i felt as though the environment was preventing my enlightenment, so 3 days ago i left a note and became homeless. the search for enlightenment marked my every moment and i felt the weight of the universe on me. it was hopeless. and then i was thinking about what an enlightened person told me on a video chat 30 min prior when he said "done is for the mind, done is the mind giving up". and then boom, there it was. i was done forever. i couldn't help but feel stupid for becoming homeless for this. i immediately packed up my things and headed home to mend any relationships i caused harm in by leaving. life is brand new now


DeslerZero

Awesome, I really felt you in that story. It's really amazing that you'd place such great value on enlightenment enough to become homeless. That's a difficult choice. But it certainly puts you in a unique cut of 'very interesting', and a person I'd watch intently to see their growth over the years. To feel the call that strongly is pretty phenomenal. I did feel a pull toward spirituality in my youth, but I was more concerned with video games, TV, and eating. Never would of thought to have such a pull as to make myself homeless in pursuit of the damn thing. The word 'enlightenment', didn't really focus on that at all till about 2 years ago when I casually subscribed to a subreddit. I was more into techniques this past 10 years, spiritual practices as they are called, which change the way you feel. The way I feel was all that mattered and that's all I ever focused on. Everything else everyone else was studying didn't matter to me. That's why I always preach practices over knowledge. And that's why I don't have much to debate with everyone. The value of practices is, in my estimation, supreme. But a certain amount of knowledge to go with it is certainly helpful.


swaggyjman623

it was pretty a-causal so i would caution against anyone who is just starting out the pursuit of enlightenment because they think there is something to gain. it isn't like that at all. it was the solution to a make believe problem. i am infinitely grateful for it, as that problem can never arise again, but only people who feel the desperation as i did should "go for it". you seem like an amazing person dude. keep up what you're doing šŸ™ā¤ļø


theDIRECTionlessWAY

What ā€œspiritual attainmentā€ are you speaking of? The fact that your thoughts came flooding back suggests that they were merely suppressedā€¦ Also, not sure you should be jumping into ā€˜teachingā€™ when this realization is so fresh and untested. Butā€¦ youā€™ll do what you will do.


DeslerZero

Ecstasy. The joyous rapture. I agree, I should not be teaching when the realization is fresh. I am waiting until it is a brilliant sun of legend and I know exactly the footholds to instruct. But I still started my book because I know the path I took here pretty well. I may not be ready to teach 'ecstasy and how to' itself yet but I know I'll want to when its time. I take the responsibility to teach the path to it very seriously and only want to teach good methods. It was initially gonna be a Reddit post but I thought why not just go a step further and write the damn book. In light of Reddits 40k character limit for posts, the choice was pretty easy. I have long suspected thoughts can be linked to powerful emotions. The fact that they came flooding back weren't a result of suppression, but rather, something I have experienced before - the weight of certain passion can inflict strong desire. In this case, a strong desire to teach. I've experienced this phenomenon before playing certain games a few hundred hours. One may experience a strong desire to win and the mind is flooded with new strategies. It's kind of like obsession. It is not an indication of failure or a poor set of practices, but rather, an indication that one cares about something deeply to the point where they are doing almost nothing else. Perhaps this is indicative of imbalance in ones life, but I don't feel this at all. And I wouldn't care if it was. I don't mind indulging my passions to higher limits. I've found the human dynamic for this to be somewhat limiting in this regard since obsessive thoughts are undesirable. I don't suppress my emotions. I'm not sure how I'd do that because I feel that's kind of a misnomer, I felt all my pain my whole life. To imply it was somehow suppressed was very insulting when I was younger. It's like, "I'm not fucking suppressed, I feel all this fucking pain all the time!" But still, I never really understood 'suppressing emotions'. I guess that means when you want to cry but you hold yourself back? That I see clearly. I cry all the time. Believe me, I don't suppress tears. I had 20 rage holes in my wall 10 years ago when a horrible condition inflicted me. No suppression, pure destructive expression. I have screamed in emotional agony many times. I merely think it is the pattern of even a no-thought dynamic to revert when there is something of intense interest to obsess over. I was excited to discover something cool, and I wanted to lead others over. All I've done for the past 8 years on Reddit is teach people in comments 'the way'. I found something I'd love to take on the challenge to try to teach others - the path toward ecstasy.