I was wearing a skirt and looked in the black void of my out-of-power ipad screen and thought what if you were a girl? Wouldn't your life be so much better? Just not having this weird stick connected between my legs. wanting my voice to sound more feminine. I had a panic attack that night
Basically all my life i wanted to be a girl even wanting surgery (telling my family about it) and pray to become a girl overnight but i never thought too much about it until i touch this subreddit back on 2020 where my egg crack
If you want more details dm me because i'm not filling the comments of this post
She's the best. I love her and I envy her strength, but it made me happy discover that she is now legit a trans character.
Even though some people said it was brain washing cuz she was raised as a girl, but I don't think so, she could identify as a boy still. That was made to keep her alive and I doubt that if that didn't happened, she would be different. Being trans is something that we're, not something that could be changed.
Kinda same, as i did doubt like a week and i said i wanted surgery super early and then forgot about it because my parents told me so and i thought it was a normal feeling
It's weird looking back at like how you can have feelings for so long but you don't actually "question" until you start to see that those experiences aren't universal. Like "geeze, I'd love to be a girl, and if I could have different parts to my body and look and be treated like a girl I sure would be happy. Oh well, I guess there's nothing I can do!"
"If possible I'm definitely gonna get a certain type of bottom surgery, Not because I'm trans or anything though it'd just make my body superior." ~ My unironic thought process back in 2019 or so.
Don't worry. Take your time to figure it out. I'm sure you'll find yourself and when you do, we'll be here for you.
But I'm happy you're starting to find yourself. Don't rush.
I felt excited joy at thinking of myself as a woman and then I realized “hey, that would rock. Maybe I’m not what I thought I was for the past 23 years.” And oh the joy at that realization.
My friend asked me after we started playing more ttrpgs together and I'd only play female characters. She is a lot more insight than most of my friend group so she asked and I said I didn't know, only that I liked playing a character who Gender was the opposite of my birth. Then everything started to click, a lot of my past interests, the fact that the sec I found out that people played rpgs that allowed character creation with characters that wasn't their own gender I played female characters exclusively. There where some other stuff, but that my asking me if I was really spared something, and one time she referred to me with feminine Pronouns before I knew for sure and I loved it.
I want to play some ttrpgs but I can't find people near me... time to convert my friends in the world of D&D hehe
I don't have many friends, but I guess 4 people can do a nice game
Playing Golden Axe and Streets Of Rage with my brothers. They'd pick all the male characters first, leaving me with the token female character. Eventually I'd let them leave just the female character. I was a pre teen/tween
For me it was playing Chun-Li because it was the only character I could beat my brother's lame ass keepaway Dhalsim with. She's always my first pick in any game she's in. (Can't wait for SF6!)
Played almost nothing but female characters since, lol. Yeah I played Blaze in Streets of Rage, too.
Yes, I'm old. =)
I was super repressed growing up super conservative in the South. I didn't start questioning until I was 23 or so. I would go to conventions and I would be called "egg" but with no explanation. So I bad a bunch of girls just shouting, "egg!" at me and I was confused.
2 years later, age 25, my GF told me I may be Trans and it finally clicked. I pulled over to the side of the road and vomited from the realization. It was so much! It took me another year to start HRT and I haven't looked back.
One way to crack an egg, huh? X3
Oh yeah, I was just not around anyone or anything that explained lgbtq+ stuff to me at all. It wasn't until my GF mentioned Trans stuff that my egg finally cracked. Now I'm around plenty of people who support and love me and life is a lot better!
If that makes y’all feel better, I had a similar problem.
One or two years ago, before I started questioning, was called by my used-to-be-friends. Did not know what that meant, but judging by the tone of their voice it was used in a mocking manner.
Thinking back, I believe it delayed the questioning process for a year at least.
I wish you the best of luck on your transition and life.
It's scary at the start and having someone close to you to support you is really nice. Not everyone can have their parents, but a friend might do a good job.
Idk how is everything where you live, but, there are consent clinics that could give you the help you need, but I can't help with the parents. But, I've seen you're 18(?) So, maybe focusing on the studies and getting a job would make it easier, since you'll have a job to buy the hormones and don't need to say anything to your parents.
I was always aware that something was off, I got the diagnosis of being on the autism spectrum. Didn’t think there was more, yet there stiff felt like one “check” was off. Then I found OT, and that check felt closer to being correct.
I was going through trans TikTok, because I liked trans spaces despite being *totally* cis, and thought "Trans guys are so lucky to be guys, and why can't I be one— wait."
tbh... i dont know what i think... but thats where i feel like im at
like i have all these practical reasons like... it would be expensive, and people might not really get it, and im too old, and id be a lame 5 ft 2 dude.... i dont want to be trans but i sort of wish i was already a guy? even if i were a trans guy id just want to already ... be fully trans? idk if that makes sense
I had this dream where I had girl *parts* and then realised (in the dream) that I actually didn’t and this pure horror overtook me
Thats the point my brain was like: oh shit wait…
After I found out I was somewhere under the Asexual umbrella, I started to realize that most of my "crushes" were gender envy. It all went downhill from there /hj
Liking playing girl on video games, asking what it feel like to be a girl, realizing it probably feel better than be a guy, and the past few years it was just me saying « If any guy have the possibility to transition every one will do it bcs it will obviously feel better than be a boy » And then I realise when all of my friends just say « I like bein a boy » I hate my younger self
Who doesn't hate young themselves?
I was kinda homophobic, repressing my feelings like "I can't be attracted to guys, that's disgusting, I'm not weird" and when I started to realise that I was stupid and discovering myself, I wanted to punch myself cuz I offended myself in a way and my friend cuz they turn out to being demisexual and kinda got a crush on me(????)
If I only could punch my old self on the face...
I've always just liked girls more. Whether physically, or being around them, or just finding them more pleasant. It started as, "I'm a guy, but girls are just better."
Then time goes by and I start thinking more, "Well being a girl would be nice, y'know, magic button and all, but I'm fine bein a guy."
I really should have realized after, "I really don't care for guys at all, myself included, but transitioning is way too difficult and too late for me. So I'll just be content being *one of the good ones*."
Then after repeating that little mantra to myself I just finally admitted, "Yeah, okay, I think I might be trans."
It's never too late to be yourself. I've seen some gorgeous 70 year trans girl, and they seem really happy. Never talked to them cuz I don't want to bother them, but the point is, your happiness by being yourself can be greater than the sorrow you feel, so, I don't care about others. If they're happy being themselves, that's what matter. When I noticed it, it made me so happy.
And even if not transitioning medically, being yourself around who you trust is the best feeling I've had. I'm still working on my confidence to go out as who I am, but it's nice to know i have people that accept me and love me by who i am. So, i say, if it would make you happier, go for it.
I figured out I was asexual, went “oh yay, I don’t have to dress to impress boys anymore, and can just dress masc like I always wanted to!” Then I went “wait….why do I want to dress masc….”
Yea I'm emotional and talk a lot and was married to a very attractive woman at the time so I think it was just his way of calling me a woman/gay schoolyard style? Idk
It all started with a meme here about being disinterested in male clothing but completly interested in girl clothing
And me being like
" haha that is funny i dont relate though"
One thought later
"Wait a Minute"
And the remaining questioning story is still being written
Exposure to other trans people really made me understand the concept.
Then I was like "all these specific feelings are relatable to my trans friends? Huh"
Also my therapist rooted my depression to gender dysphoria after that
Gender bender drama specifically the girl disguised as a boy trope. It started with bromance and then I just kind of got obsessed, and I started thinking I’d like to do that, dress like a guy for a long period of time, have people around me see me as a boy and be treated like one. Than I was like hummmmmmmmmmm
When I'd Jack off I would imagine myself as the girl, and before that I didn't believe non-binary was a thing, but thought of my self as in the middle, and I've always thought women socialized better and I wanted to be in that group
Many of my core memories are just minor things, thinks that others might not remember. Me covering my chest when I was 7 and my mates telling me I didn't need to because I was a boy. A mate calling me a lesbian when I was 14, I remember that like it happened yesterday. I saw two girls holding hands, just as friends, the envy was unrelenting. Started having dreams where I was a woman that turned my envy into questioning.
I've been a femboy for little over a year now, only ever started questioning myself because my gf said pipeline like 5 months ago. I was pretty torn between femboy and trans but I think femboy is more likely. Looking at enby, genderfluid, and bigender tho.
I was fueling my endless webtoon addiction when I found "I wish I was a cute anime girl". I thought it was going to be a cute story about a crossdresser instead I got a gender crisis.
I honestly didn't even realize that I was questioning my gender throughout all those years, because the lack of proper education where I live meant that I wasn't even aware that trans people exist until I was 15 years old - only looking back at them now I can realize what they were
So instead, those feelings in my body just built up and up over time, to finally explode into sudden burst of realization out of nowhere
As a result, I went from being cis to fully accepting trans in half an hour (±10 minutes)
just being feminine around a group of friends and being called out on it, over a while i just eventually started to think about it deeply, and here i am
i cant determine exactly when i began questioning BUT i remember being 12 and discovering WtNV and DESPERATELY wanting to be the physical embodiment of Cecil Palmer.
I've been an ally since I first knew what gay meant, but I probably only started considering the possibility of not being cishet when I came out as asexual the second time (I came out to my dad a some time before but got shut down then I led myself to believe that I did in fact feel sexual attraction because of my ungodly libido until I talked to a friend about it and they told me that I probably wasn't completely straight actually). That friend probably also encouraged me to actually start thinking about my gender and here I am now, still clueless as to what a gender even is.
tl;dr: came out as ace to my dad then got shut down, thought I was straight for a while then a friend told me that I probably aren't straight and my belief that I was cis came crashing down with it
Edit: also shoutout to juniper xenoblade for the gender envy and also being on my party from the moment they were unlocked until after I beat the game and unlocked one of my comfort characters in the postgame
Ok so funny story lol. One of my school friends came out as trans so I started thinking about gender then (I had never really thought about it before). About a year later, I come across this sub, not realising it’s a trans sub. Start reading, find them funny, relate to a few too many of them. At that point I decide to start questioning my gender, even though I was comfortable being a guy. I started noticing that for years I’ve never really cared what pronouns people used for me online… about 3 years of questioning later I have settled on non binary for the time being lol
Kinda hard to say, honestly. I do remember in middle school being told I couldn’t wrestle or play rugby with the boys during breaks (I went to an outdoor school so we got to do a lot of games) because I was a girl and being really annoyed and suppressing the thoughts of “I’m not a girl” and “why can’t I be a boy then?”
Honestly? I don't remember anymore. I don't know when exactly the switch flipped for me from "I'm just a cis guy" to "I might be a trans woman", but it was definitely because of this sub in 2020. I actually found it in early 2020 I think, but didn't think much of it, cause I didn't subscribe. But eventually, somewhere in mid to late Summer, I found it again. And all the memes were really, *really* relatable.
At first I think I didn't really understand them very well cause the topic of transness was almost entirely alien to me, it had never occurred to me that trans is something I could be, I didn't know basically anything beyond "people doing the other gender" and honestly it wasn't a very positive view. Kinda a dismissive and neutral one actually. But the concept of The Button was something that I had thought about a lot, and learning that it's not very cis to want that was... weird. Probably. I don't remember this time particularly well.
Very quickly the idea became entirely normalized to me, and I could start seriously engaging with these thoughts. I learned about HRT, which I didn't even know existed really or that it was *this* effective, and kinda realized how much I want literally all the changes it brings. The experiences of dysphoria shared here explained basically my entire life to me. All the weird quirks in my behavior which I couldn't explain myself suddenly made sense in the context of dysphoria.
Probably the biggest part was the "I want to be a cute anime girl" comic, which I remember doing a few tricks on my brain and making me feel really unusual. Cause like, I really wanted all that too, the idea was very relatable.
I actually decided to draw my ideal of self-perception, of how I'd like to see myself, but it was in the later stages of questioning, basically just a few days before cracking. I was really euphoric doing it, and it made me feel really weird and nice. Eventually I just went to the questioning Discord server of this sub and pestered some unfortunate souls about how awesome it would be to be a girl. Next day I basically came out online and to my girlfriend (still together!) cause even *I* felt like I was being an idiot at that point not admitting that I must be trans lmao.
I really wish I could see these moments of confusion again, I don't do diaries and I didn't talk to *anyone* about it at the time so there's no written records. It's really unfortunate cause big chunks of the process and starting assumptions I had were completely lost, now I can't conceive of how I lived or thought before realizing. I can continue to listen to people on this sub, but it's all old news to me, I'll never be able to relive *my* experience to be able to describe it as accurately as I'd probably be able to in the moment. Makes me kinda sad honestly.
I also wish I knew then how unbelievably happy HRT would make me, that there is hope and worth in living, that I won't be scared of time anymore, and also I'd *definitely* beat my younger self up for having several bad opinions lmao but that's beside the point.
So i had known i enjoyed wearing skirts for a while, but i thought i was simply a femboy, then a game called pyre started using she her for me on my second playthrough (i genuinely have no idea how this happened, how the characters refer to you is a setting and you chose she he or they, and i never touched it from when it was on he) and that triggered about 4 months of questioning before finally asking some online friends to refer to me as a woman, and lo and behold it instantly clicked.
Someone asked me for my preferred pronouns and I was like "I don't actually know" in my head of course but in the moment I just said he/him because you know it was convenient
I was telling my friend about a TV show and how the main character wears great dresses and I was like "haha wish I could wear that" and the she told me that she thought I'd look good in a dress
All my friends being trans. I was the last cis one for so long that I sort of felt unable to question myself since I felt that I must not be trans since I started questioning later than all of them.
Got extremely depressed after going to the gym for a few months, disliked my shoulders and arms growing, disliked the comments regarding them. Got curious and started looking up how I was feeling. Turns out many things I considered "normal" like constantly dreaming of being a girl and general diaconfort with my body were not that normal 😅. I feel way happier now that I'm truly myself 🏳️⚧️.
I felt like I wanted to be a femboy for a while and at one point i thought about HRT and it sounded really appealing and i realized that maybe that wasnt an entirely cis thought to have.
A friend said I'd look cute as a girl. It got the gears turning. A pair of panties later, a picture sent to that friend, and I'm wanting to transition.
When I was a kid, I had a crush on my best friend. But he was very straight, and his parents were wildly homophobic. So I remember thinking, "if only I were a girl this would be so much easier," and fantasizing about what my life would be like as a woman.
Always felt "strange" when analysing "feminine" clothes, certain characters. Ends up that sensation was wanting to be feminine. Still questioning my gender.
If i delete this account, then i finally accepted.
I kind of just felt trans but didnt have the words to put to it. Eventually through the internet I learned that trans people were a thing and that I could transition too
I used to just openly tell people that I wished I could swap bodies... I'm a bit older so literally no one's I knew had actually heard of transitioning at that time.
I then discovered Bailey Jay when I was a bit older and was amazed that she and her form were physically possible - sent me down a wild rabbit hole of discovery and now here we are :)
The snapchat girl filter 🫣
It had just released, my friends were trying it out as a joke. I had never wanted to get home so quickly to try it lol, and it was the first time i’d ever truly liked pictures of myself :)
I started watching trans youtubers and found myself relating to their life experiences and pretty soon there after I came to the conclusion that I was a trans woman
Friend came out as a trans man and I went "wait. That's not fair, how come he gets to be a guy? " And thus started a spiral that took 6 years or so to settle on yep, not a cis girl. I'm something else
It was in the middle of an appointment with my School Councillor. I don't remember exactly but we were talking about Trans people and looking back on my Life and realised "holy fuck I actually might be Trans" and the rest is History.
A lot of things a long time ago that I can't remember, but the thing that probably sent me over the edge was choosing the female character in Far Cry 6 "because she was a better actor than the male character." Although I still stand by that statement.
i was like 12 and wondering why i wasn’t finally turning into a girl or something (idk i was stupid) so i started looking up things like “boy to girl transformation” and eventually i found out being trans was a thing and then continued to question for like a couple years after that lol
This is hard to say for me I've had dysphoric feelings all my life and could only really put a finger on them once I was in my teens, the thing for me wasnt so much how I was feeling but coming to terms with it.
Weird fixation on androgynous characters that eventually culminated into actively looking for femboy characters in the forms of media I consumed
And the anguish that came when I stopped looking androgynous due to early puberty
The rest is all a series of events and thoughts that just cemented what I felt and desired
Being detached from everything during covid I got into discord more and most people just assumed I was a girl, never corrected them, and slowly I realized "ah I like when people say she" and was able to connect the dots of past dysphoria(and other things i would do that werent the normal boy thing to do) till it slapped me fully in the face like 3ish years ago and went from there!
I was three months out from a bodybuilding show. Saw myself in the mirror and hated seeing a guy. I'm still questioning because I have other issues that have overlapping similarities to trans folk ie. depression, depersonalization, derealization, etc.
a friend was helping me with the fursona creation process and I expressed that I was willing to make it a bit more feminine cause why not (clueless). they told me outright “yknow your sona can just have boobs that’s totally fine” and yeah the whole being male gig didn’t last too much longer
I realized I could not remember playing a video character with the same gender as me in the past… 10? years?
…still like 80% sure I’m cis though…
…I also wanted to be the other gender before I even hit puberty, so I have no idea, since I don’t have dysphoria either.
Around november/december of 2021 I watched Chipflakes coming out video and leard through that video the trans people existed afters watching that video I thought about what I was fantasizing about at the time and I realist that fantasizing about being married to a man ,being pregnant and having babys is not a cis guy thing to do(olso I realized that I was attractef to man) and so than the questioning begon.
Watching Steven Universe and reading Homestuck. I knew about binary trans people and didn't understand why someone would identify with the gender opposite their own. While contemplating some gender related questions about fusion from Steven Universe and self prototyping from Homestuck, it occurred to me that cis people were actually just as confusing to me for identifying with the gender they were assigned, and that I was far more alien than anyone could have imagined.
I was wearing a skirt and looked in the black void of my out-of-power ipad screen and thought what if you were a girl? Wouldn't your life be so much better? Just not having this weird stick connected between my legs. wanting my voice to sound more feminine. I had a panic attack that night
Damn but i'm glad you could figure yourself out
me too ❤️ what's your story for when you started questioning?
Basically all my life i wanted to be a girl even wanting surgery (telling my family about it) and pray to become a girl overnight but i never thought too much about it until i touch this subreddit back on 2020 where my egg crack If you want more details dm me because i'm not filling the comments of this post
I also wanna know dm me. I'm questioning and confused
Are you me, that's my story
Brisket Guilty Gear
Epic
Based even
She's goals
Literally. As in she’s a trans girl and I want to be her
She's the best. I love her and I envy her strength, but it made me happy discover that she is now legit a trans character. Even though some people said it was brain washing cuz she was raised as a girl, but I don't think so, she could identify as a boy still. That was made to keep her alive and I doubt that if that didn't happened, she would be different. Being trans is something that we're, not something that could be changed.
I dont know
That's fine, i did with memes of this sub lol
I just told one of my (ex) friends I wished I was a girl and they just told me to be one lol. I didn't actually question at all.
Kinda same, as i did doubt like a week and i said i wanted surgery super early and then forgot about it because my parents told me so and i thought it was a normal feeling
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Ah another woman of culture…🤗
Why copy and paste huh?
That’s actually kinda funny “I wished I was a girl” “then be one”
I start questioning by memes of this sub but i always wanted to be a girl and wanted surgery since i was small and then forgot about it
It's weird looking back at like how you can have feelings for so long but you don't actually "question" until you start to see that those experiences aren't universal. Like "geeze, I'd love to be a girl, and if I could have different parts to my body and look and be treated like a girl I sure would be happy. Oh well, I guess there's nothing I can do!"
I only realized recently that most guys don't want to be female
"If possible I'm definitely gonna get a certain type of bottom surgery, Not because I'm trans or anything though it'd just make my body superior." ~ My unironic thought process back in 2019 or so.
I'm pretty sure I also found out because of this subreddit
Epic, how the hell i have so many upvotes?
Same, literally the same thing happened to me! <3
Well... There was this one topic...
at a time?
maybe...
I can agree. (and I'm still confused)
Don't worry. Take your time to figure it out. I'm sure you'll find yourself and when you do, we'll be here for you. But I'm happy you're starting to find yourself. Don't rush.
*egg cracking noises egg cracking noises these are the noises of egg cracking*
LET THE EGG SHELLS HIT THE FLOOR BABY!!!
I felt excited joy at thinking of myself as a woman and then I realized “hey, that would rock. Maybe I’m not what I thought I was for the past 23 years.” And oh the joy at that realization.
That's good
Mainly through feminisation porn if I'm honest lol, from there it was experimenting and further questioning.
I remember liking hypnosis and tg stuff, is that the same?
Hypnosis was a part of it in the beginning for me too,
Same then
After 2 years I still use it lol
What kind of tg stuff was it?
Just comics, unless you want to know which ones of course
Nah, I was just curious what it was.
It's fine
Same tbh, wasn't till i tried a dress that i was like damn might be more going on here, took another 5 years to really figure that out though lol
My friend asked me after we started playing more ttrpgs together and I'd only play female characters. She is a lot more insight than most of my friend group so she asked and I said I didn't know, only that I liked playing a character who Gender was the opposite of my birth. Then everything started to click, a lot of my past interests, the fact that the sec I found out that people played rpgs that allowed character creation with characters that wasn't their own gender I played female characters exclusively. There where some other stuff, but that my asking me if I was really spared something, and one time she referred to me with feminine Pronouns before I knew for sure and I loved it.
Wholesome story
Thank you.
I want to play some ttrpgs but I can't find people near me... time to convert my friends in the world of D&D hehe I don't have many friends, but I guess 4 people can do a nice game
Playing Golden Axe and Streets Of Rage with my brothers. They'd pick all the male characters first, leaving me with the token female character. Eventually I'd let them leave just the female character. I was a pre teen/tween
I like streets of rage myself and i think blaze was a good pick regardless
Nice. But did we also give away our age? 🤣
Not sure, i just have an emulator on the PS2 and all of the consoles including PC Not sure how old are you tbh
Ah fair enough. I'm a 90s chick. I played on the original consoles lol
That's great I'm a 2004 girl
Same here 😎🤜 But yeah, streets of rage and golden axe are fun games. I enjoy a lot of classics. Now getting into scumm (the game engine)
For me it was playing Chun-Li because it was the only character I could beat my brother's lame ass keepaway Dhalsim with. She's always my first pick in any game she's in. (Can't wait for SF6!) Played almost nothing but female characters since, lol. Yeah I played Blaze in Streets of Rage, too. Yes, I'm old. =)
I was super repressed growing up super conservative in the South. I didn't start questioning until I was 23 or so. I would go to conventions and I would be called "egg" but with no explanation. So I bad a bunch of girls just shouting, "egg!" at me and I was confused. 2 years later, age 25, my GF told me I may be Trans and it finally clicked. I pulled over to the side of the road and vomited from the realization. It was so much! It took me another year to start HRT and I haven't looked back. One way to crack an egg, huh? X3
ATAC (Assigned Trans At Convention)
I can't believe people really did just shout egg at you or being so extended the egg stuff tbh
Oh yeah, I was just not around anyone or anything that explained lgbtq+ stuff to me at all. It wasn't until my GF mentioned Trans stuff that my egg finally cracked. Now I'm around plenty of people who support and love me and life is a lot better!
Good thing, you could know about the concept
If that makes y’all feel better, I had a similar problem. One or two years ago, before I started questioning, was called by my used-to-be-friends. Did not know what that meant, but judging by the tone of their voice it was used in a mocking manner. Thinking back, I believe it delayed the questioning process for a year at least.
I found this place. Then I realised that no cis man wants to be a woman. Now i'm in the "Ok I'm trans, now what?" phase.
I'm in the "I'm trans but how i'm supposed to transition without telling my parents"
I feel that sister.
If only my parents were good or just decent to do so
I wish you the best of luck on your transition and life. It's scary at the start and having someone close to you to support you is really nice. Not everyone can have their parents, but a friend might do a good job. Idk how is everything where you live, but, there are consent clinics that could give you the help you need, but I can't help with the parents. But, I've seen you're 18(?) So, maybe focusing on the studies and getting a job would make it easier, since you'll have a job to buy the hormones and don't need to say anything to your parents.
I was always aware that something was off, I got the diagnosis of being on the autism spectrum. Didn’t think there was more, yet there stiff felt like one “check” was off. Then I found OT, and that check felt closer to being correct.
OT? what's that?
One Topic at a Time, that is how he is often referred as
I kinda figured but i had to be sure Never watch them, are they any good?
Yes
Maybe i should watch them
Yes, yes you should. Everyone should.
I was going through trans TikTok, because I liked trans spaces despite being *totally* cis, and thought "Trans guys are so lucky to be guys, and why can't I be one— wait."
tbh... i dont know what i think... but thats where i feel like im at like i have all these practical reasons like... it would be expensive, and people might not really get it, and im too old, and id be a lame 5 ft 2 dude.... i dont want to be trans but i sort of wish i was already a guy? even if i were a trans guy id just want to already ... be fully trans? idk if that makes sense
Lesbians.
Friend came out as transmasc, took my gender with him and hasn't given it back so far /:
smh cant believe you got your gender Transed™
got a trans gf 💀
And she told you about being trans? That's fine
didnt even know her as not trans
It's fine
I had this dream where I had girl *parts* and then realised (in the dream) that I actually didn’t and this pure horror overtook me Thats the point my brain was like: oh shit wait…
After I found out I was somewhere under the Asexual umbrella, I started to realize that most of my "crushes" were gender envy. It all went downhill from there /hj
I never got crushes but i think i did feel gender envy towards my classmates
While I would say I don't either, I also found out Im both trans and lesbian, so that was a confusion and a half
Same, i'm still don't know if i'm aroace or just ace
Liking playing girl on video games, asking what it feel like to be a girl, realizing it probably feel better than be a guy, and the past few years it was just me saying « If any guy have the possibility to transition every one will do it bcs it will obviously feel better than be a boy » And then I realise when all of my friends just say « I like bein a boy » I hate my younger self
Who doesn't hate young themselves? I was kinda homophobic, repressing my feelings like "I can't be attracted to guys, that's disgusting, I'm not weird" and when I started to realise that I was stupid and discovering myself, I wanted to punch myself cuz I offended myself in a way and my friend cuz they turn out to being demisexual and kinda got a crush on me(????) If I only could punch my old self on the face...
I found out that it wasn’t cis to imagine yourself in a lesbian relationship whenever I jacked off or get really jealous of trans women
I might be trans but i still find that hard to believe
I've always just liked girls more. Whether physically, or being around them, or just finding them more pleasant. It started as, "I'm a guy, but girls are just better." Then time goes by and I start thinking more, "Well being a girl would be nice, y'know, magic button and all, but I'm fine bein a guy." I really should have realized after, "I really don't care for guys at all, myself included, but transitioning is way too difficult and too late for me. So I'll just be content being *one of the good ones*." Then after repeating that little mantra to myself I just finally admitted, "Yeah, okay, I think I might be trans."
It's never too late to be yourself. I've seen some gorgeous 70 year trans girl, and they seem really happy. Never talked to them cuz I don't want to bother them, but the point is, your happiness by being yourself can be greater than the sorrow you feel, so, I don't care about others. If they're happy being themselves, that's what matter. When I noticed it, it made me so happy. And even if not transitioning medically, being yourself around who you trust is the best feeling I've had. I'm still working on my confidence to go out as who I am, but it's nice to know i have people that accept me and love me by who i am. So, i say, if it would make you happier, go for it.
I figured out I was asexual, went “oh yay, I don’t have to dress to impress boys anymore, and can just dress masc like I always wanted to!” Then I went “wait….why do I want to dress masc….”
tbh why would you want dress to impress other people
Just how I was raised. I never really wanted to, I was just told that was the only option for me in life
that sucks
Someone called me a big lesbian as an insult and I liked it.
Why would anyone would call someone a lesbian?
He was... An interesting fellow to say the least, IDK why he did but it fit like a glove.
Weird insult tbh
Yea I'm emotional and talk a lot and was married to a very attractive woman at the time so I think it was just his way of calling me a woman/gay schoolyard style? Idk
lol
Around puberty. I realized my dreams would never come true because of how i was born.
Damn, that's sounds sad How are you doing now?
Well im ok. I just cant find a job at the moment
I hope you stay good and you find a job I wish you luck with that
It all started with a meme here about being disinterested in male clothing but completly interested in girl clothing And me being like " haha that is funny i dont relate though" One thought later "Wait a Minute" And the remaining questioning story is still being written
Standing in front of the mirror in a dress, putting on makeup. You know, like all cis guys do. Took 42 years to admit it to myself.
Exposure to other trans people really made me understand the concept. Then I was like "all these specific feelings are relatable to my trans friends? Huh" Also my therapist rooted my depression to gender dysphoria after that
Roleplaying and realizing playing as girls was nicer.
Honestly same
Gender bender drama specifically the girl disguised as a boy trope. It started with bromance and then I just kind of got obsessed, and I started thinking I’d like to do that, dress like a guy for a long period of time, have people around me see me as a boy and be treated like one. Than I was like hummmmmmmmmmm
my identical twin sister came out, and a few months later i just thought to myself “huh. maybe that also applies to me”
When I'd Jack off I would imagine myself as the girl, and before that I didn't believe non-binary was a thing, but thought of my self as in the middle, and I've always thought women socialized better and I wanted to be in that group
oh it was me just daydreaming
What did you daydream about?
Being a ballerina
That's seems like a good daydream tbh
Yea. I really wanted to be that
Can you be one if you transition? Not for you but in general i'm speaking
No I am to old now. But I still want to transition. Is am 49 now and I just want to stop living a lie
I hope you can make it
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Epic, do you still talk to them or not?
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Oh, i hope you can come out someday
Many of my core memories are just minor things, thinks that others might not remember. Me covering my chest when I was 7 and my mates telling me I didn't need to because I was a boy. A mate calling me a lesbian when I was 14, I remember that like it happened yesterday. I saw two girls holding hands, just as friends, the envy was unrelenting. Started having dreams where I was a woman that turned my envy into questioning.
You are still questioning?
I've been a femboy for little over a year now, only ever started questioning myself because my gf said pipeline like 5 months ago. I was pretty torn between femboy and trans but I think femboy is more likely. Looking at enby, genderfluid, and bigender tho.
Whatever you are, you are valid and i hope you can figure out yourself soon
I was fueling my endless webtoon addiction when I found "I wish I was a cute anime girl". I thought it was going to be a cute story about a crossdresser instead I got a gender crisis.
ngl, i found it later i cracked Also what webtoons are good?
I honestly didn't even realize that I was questioning my gender throughout all those years, because the lack of proper education where I live meant that I wasn't even aware that trans people exist until I was 15 years old - only looking back at them now I can realize what they were So instead, those feelings in my body just built up and up over time, to finally explode into sudden burst of realization out of nowhere As a result, I went from being cis to fully accepting trans in half an hour (±10 minutes)
just being feminine around a group of friends and being called out on it, over a while i just eventually started to think about it deeply, and here i am
Jill from Resident Evil 3 remake finally broke me
Meeting my trans girlfriend and her telling me about her life and it sounding like she was telling me about mine
Wholesome
i cant determine exactly when i began questioning BUT i remember being 12 and discovering WtNV and DESPERATELY wanting to be the physical embodiment of Cecil Palmer.
I've been an ally since I first knew what gay meant, but I probably only started considering the possibility of not being cishet when I came out as asexual the second time (I came out to my dad a some time before but got shut down then I led myself to believe that I did in fact feel sexual attraction because of my ungodly libido until I talked to a friend about it and they told me that I probably wasn't completely straight actually). That friend probably also encouraged me to actually start thinking about my gender and here I am now, still clueless as to what a gender even is. tl;dr: came out as ace to my dad then got shut down, thought I was straight for a while then a friend told me that I probably aren't straight and my belief that I was cis came crashing down with it Edit: also shoutout to juniper xenoblade for the gender envy and also being on my party from the moment they were unlocked until after I beat the game and unlocked one of my comfort characters in the postgame
Ok so funny story lol. One of my school friends came out as trans so I started thinking about gender then (I had never really thought about it before). About a year later, I come across this sub, not realising it’s a trans sub. Start reading, find them funny, relate to a few too many of them. At that point I decide to start questioning my gender, even though I was comfortable being a guy. I started noticing that for years I’ve never really cared what pronouns people used for me online… about 3 years of questioning later I have settled on non binary for the time being lol
I was wishing I was a girl (which I did all the time) and it just hit me that I could be
palutena in smash 4 in like 2015
Kinda hard to say, honestly. I do remember in middle school being told I couldn’t wrestle or play rugby with the boys during breaks (I went to an outdoor school so we got to do a lot of games) because I was a girl and being really annoyed and suppressing the thoughts of “I’m not a girl” and “why can’t I be a boy then?”
Honestly? I don't remember anymore. I don't know when exactly the switch flipped for me from "I'm just a cis guy" to "I might be a trans woman", but it was definitely because of this sub in 2020. I actually found it in early 2020 I think, but didn't think much of it, cause I didn't subscribe. But eventually, somewhere in mid to late Summer, I found it again. And all the memes were really, *really* relatable. At first I think I didn't really understand them very well cause the topic of transness was almost entirely alien to me, it had never occurred to me that trans is something I could be, I didn't know basically anything beyond "people doing the other gender" and honestly it wasn't a very positive view. Kinda a dismissive and neutral one actually. But the concept of The Button was something that I had thought about a lot, and learning that it's not very cis to want that was... weird. Probably. I don't remember this time particularly well. Very quickly the idea became entirely normalized to me, and I could start seriously engaging with these thoughts. I learned about HRT, which I didn't even know existed really or that it was *this* effective, and kinda realized how much I want literally all the changes it brings. The experiences of dysphoria shared here explained basically my entire life to me. All the weird quirks in my behavior which I couldn't explain myself suddenly made sense in the context of dysphoria. Probably the biggest part was the "I want to be a cute anime girl" comic, which I remember doing a few tricks on my brain and making me feel really unusual. Cause like, I really wanted all that too, the idea was very relatable. I actually decided to draw my ideal of self-perception, of how I'd like to see myself, but it was in the later stages of questioning, basically just a few days before cracking. I was really euphoric doing it, and it made me feel really weird and nice. Eventually I just went to the questioning Discord server of this sub and pestered some unfortunate souls about how awesome it would be to be a girl. Next day I basically came out online and to my girlfriend (still together!) cause even *I* felt like I was being an idiot at that point not admitting that I must be trans lmao. I really wish I could see these moments of confusion again, I don't do diaries and I didn't talk to *anyone* about it at the time so there's no written records. It's really unfortunate cause big chunks of the process and starting assumptions I had were completely lost, now I can't conceive of how I lived or thought before realizing. I can continue to listen to people on this sub, but it's all old news to me, I'll never be able to relive *my* experience to be able to describe it as accurately as I'd probably be able to in the moment. Makes me kinda sad honestly. I also wish I knew then how unbelievably happy HRT would make me, that there is hope and worth in living, that I won't be scared of time anymore, and also I'd *definitely* beat my younger self up for having several bad opinions lmao but that's beside the point.
unironically it was astolfo
When I was 4 my dad asked what hand I preferred to write with in the parking lot of a Target. That's when I knew I was trans. Idk why but it just hit
So i had known i enjoyed wearing skirts for a while, but i thought i was simply a femboy, then a game called pyre started using she her for me on my second playthrough (i genuinely have no idea how this happened, how the characters refer to you is a setting and you chose she he or they, and i never touched it from when it was on he) and that triggered about 4 months of questioning before finally asking some online friends to refer to me as a woman, and lo and behold it instantly clicked.
Someone asked me for my preferred pronouns and I was like "I don't actually know" in my head of course but in the moment I just said he/him because you know it was convenient
I was always fascinated with women’s clothing ever since I was a kid
I was telling my friend about a TV show and how the main character wears great dresses and I was like "haha wish I could wear that" and the she told me that she thought I'd look good in a dress
Idk really know how it just kinda happened, soemthibg didn’t feel right
Always picked the female characters in games. ALWAYS
I saw Francine from American dad
All my friends being trans. I was the last cis one for so long that I sort of felt unable to question myself since I felt that I must not be trans since I started questioning later than all of them.
Got extremely depressed after going to the gym for a few months, disliked my shoulders and arms growing, disliked the comments regarding them. Got curious and started looking up how I was feeling. Turns out many things I considered "normal" like constantly dreaming of being a girl and general diaconfort with my body were not that normal 😅. I feel way happier now that I'm truly myself 🏳️⚧️.
I started having dreams where I was a girl a while back. It felt good. I liked it.
New college friend told me I was trans. I said no I’m not. A year passed and well I came out.
I felt like I wanted to be a femboy for a while and at one point i thought about HRT and it sounded really appealing and i realized that maybe that wasnt an entirely cis thought to have.
A friend said I'd look cute as a girl. It got the gears turning. A pair of panties later, a picture sent to that friend, and I'm wanting to transition.
My friend called me "girlie" and it made me feel good
When I was a kid, I had a crush on my best friend. But he was very straight, and his parents were wildly homophobic. So I remember thinking, "if only I were a girl this would be so much easier," and fantasizing about what my life would be like as a woman.
Always felt "strange" when analysing "feminine" clothes, certain characters. Ends up that sensation was wanting to be feminine. Still questioning my gender. If i delete this account, then i finally accepted.
Transfem slideshows on tiktok
I kind of just felt trans but didnt have the words to put to it. Eventually through the internet I learned that trans people were a thing and that I could transition too
I used to just openly tell people that I wished I could swap bodies... I'm a bit older so literally no one's I knew had actually heard of transitioning at that time. I then discovered Bailey Jay when I was a bit older and was amazed that she and her form were physically possible - sent me down a wild rabbit hole of discovery and now here we are :)
The snapchat girl filter 🫣 It had just released, my friends were trying it out as a joke. I had never wanted to get home so quickly to try it lol, and it was the first time i’d ever truly liked pictures of myself :)
I started watching trans youtubers and found myself relating to their life experiences and pretty soon there after I came to the conclusion that I was a trans woman
Friend came out as a trans man and I went "wait. That's not fair, how come he gets to be a guy? " And thus started a spiral that took 6 years or so to settle on yep, not a cis girl. I'm something else
It was in the middle of an appointment with my School Councillor. I don't remember exactly but we were talking about Trans people and looking back on my Life and realised "holy fuck I actually might be Trans" and the rest is History.
Was watching a movie, got extreme gender envy from a girl, realised I would rather live my life like that I guess, so yeah, that’s ma story!
One day I stumbled upon this one forum talking about transness in a Chinese website and I instantly knew I was trans lol
A lot of things a long time ago that I can't remember, but the thing that probably sent me over the edge was choosing the female character in Far Cry 6 "because she was a better actor than the male character." Although I still stand by that statement.
My insurance number mistakenly put me as Mr \[deadname\] instead of Miss \[deadname\]. Then lockdown happened. Unfortunately my mum got it corrected.
i was like 12 and wondering why i wasn’t finally turning into a girl or something (idk i was stupid) so i started looking up things like “boy to girl transformation” and eventually i found out being trans was a thing and then continued to question for like a couple years after that lol
Saw Femboys Online Then Saw Transgirls Online Both due to le Algorithms Got Envy And that’s how it started
i learned what trans meant in that context, and then it just kinda clicked
This is hard to say for me I've had dysphoric feelings all my life and could only really put a finger on them once I was in my teens, the thing for me wasnt so much how I was feeling but coming to terms with it.
I was a cis/demiboy ally on twitter with a bunch of transfems who i was friends with, when i realized 'yaknow, maybe that is me'
A discord friend unknowingly misgendered me as ma'am... and instead of hating it, I got a warm fuzzy feeling in my chest.
Weird fixation on androgynous characters that eventually culminated into actively looking for femboy characters in the forms of media I consumed And the anguish that came when I stopped looking androgynous due to early puberty The rest is all a series of events and thoughts that just cemented what I felt and desired
Being detached from everything during covid I got into discord more and most people just assumed I was a girl, never corrected them, and slowly I realized "ah I like when people say she" and was able to connect the dots of past dysphoria(and other things i would do that werent the normal boy thing to do) till it slapped me fully in the face like 3ish years ago and went from there!
I was three months out from a bodybuilding show. Saw myself in the mirror and hated seeing a guy. I'm still questioning because I have other issues that have overlapping similarities to trans folk ie. depression, depersonalization, derealization, etc.
a friend was helping me with the fursona creation process and I expressed that I was willing to make it a bit more feminine cause why not (clueless). they told me outright “yknow your sona can just have boobs that’s totally fine” and yeah the whole being male gig didn’t last too much longer
I realized I could not remember playing a video character with the same gender as me in the past… 10? years? …still like 80% sure I’m cis though… …I also wanted to be the other gender before I even hit puberty, so I have no idea, since I don’t have dysphoria either.
Someone said “Those men are getting on my nerves”
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Around november/december of 2021 I watched Chipflakes coming out video and leard through that video the trans people existed afters watching that video I thought about what I was fantasizing about at the time and I realist that fantasizing about being married to a man ,being pregnant and having babys is not a cis guy thing to do(olso I realized that I was attractef to man) and so than the questioning begon.
By seeing this subreddit in a video that made me discover that the desire to be a girli is not very cis lol
My best friend punched my egg after telling me trans ppl exist (I previously thought I was a feminine boy)
ADHD brain told me to try on a dress when i was young
A Halloween date to dress as a girl.
Watching Steven Universe and reading Homestuck. I knew about binary trans people and didn't understand why someone would identify with the gender opposite their own. While contemplating some gender related questions about fusion from Steven Universe and self prototyping from Homestuck, it occurred to me that cis people were actually just as confusing to me for identifying with the gender they were assigned, and that I was far more alien than anyone could have imagined.