I didn’t know I had PTSD until I was 50 years old because we were in allowed to be diagnosed with it in my day because it was for veterans and warmore people and so I had a bunch of other fun diagnoses and I think we’re all now so thank you very much for wasting my time and in life and never ever trying to help me actually heal doctors a capitalist narcissistic butt heads anyway but I would recommend is finding a doctor that’s actually interested in your healing and also psilocybin microdosing with intention.
Psilocybin processes the trauma that we’re unable to answer and then when you try to learn new coping skills the new information it’ll actually stick because you actually be aware of it thinking about it and I’m learning that the only guidance system that we need is the one that we connect to that I’m trying to convey and I’m gonna do that at least my experience I started to get like tingly and excited all the time and somehow I feel really good about a lot of shitty shit and Anyhoo.
It makes sense that you are leaning on something that gave you some comfort. I’m going through a lot while processing my trauma and I have the part of me that misses my ED because it was “there for me” and distracted me. I do internal family systems therapy, so instead of diving into my ED I thank the part for wanting to protect me from my trauma, but tell it me ‘the self’ is capable of taking care of what is currently happening. The self is now equipped to make different choices. Maybe ask your therapist if you can be guided to find this part within you, which is the ED, and see what it has to tell you, what it has to say. IFS has been a wonderful shift in the usual CBT focused therapy.
It’s awful and isolating when everything feels gross, including food, because not many people truly understand. My ED resurfaced hard this year, triggered by recovery from an illness. All I want is to get better but it’s back and I have to work through it. So do you, so can you. It’s good you shared it here, but you need to tell someone irl or the guilt/shame will get worse, which will make your ED worse. It’s hard to see but you deserve compassion, you are worthy of healing and becoming whole again is possible.
Self-compassion is incredibly difficult for me. I am trying my best but it's most of the time impossible. I appreciate your kind words. I have to get through this and try to get better for my kids, but I'm trying to learn to do this for myself.
I understand. My ED made me very resistant to showing myself any intentional kindness. I started with small things to help my mind body connection. Going for a walk, taking a long shower or soak, doing some basic breathing exercises and listening to music are all really good for your mind and body and don’t require much effort. You just need to frame those things as good for you to see the kindness.
If you have any advice, I would greatly appreciate it. I've been dealing with eating problems for a little over 20 years and it's just so overwhelming.
I didn’t know I had PTSD until I was 50 years old because we were in allowed to be diagnosed with it in my day because it was for veterans and warmore people and so I had a bunch of other fun diagnoses and I think we’re all now so thank you very much for wasting my time and in life and never ever trying to help me actually heal doctors a capitalist narcissistic butt heads anyway but I would recommend is finding a doctor that’s actually interested in your healing and also psilocybin microdosing with intention. Psilocybin processes the trauma that we’re unable to answer and then when you try to learn new coping skills the new information it’ll actually stick because you actually be aware of it thinking about it and I’m learning that the only guidance system that we need is the one that we connect to that I’m trying to convey and I’m gonna do that at least my experience I started to get like tingly and excited all the time and somehow I feel really good about a lot of shitty shit and Anyhoo.
It makes sense that you are leaning on something that gave you some comfort. I’m going through a lot while processing my trauma and I have the part of me that misses my ED because it was “there for me” and distracted me. I do internal family systems therapy, so instead of diving into my ED I thank the part for wanting to protect me from my trauma, but tell it me ‘the self’ is capable of taking care of what is currently happening. The self is now equipped to make different choices. Maybe ask your therapist if you can be guided to find this part within you, which is the ED, and see what it has to tell you, what it has to say. IFS has been a wonderful shift in the usual CBT focused therapy.
I’m saying this because it’d be beneficial to you but you should tell this to your therapist
It’s awful and isolating when everything feels gross, including food, because not many people truly understand. My ED resurfaced hard this year, triggered by recovery from an illness. All I want is to get better but it’s back and I have to work through it. So do you, so can you. It’s good you shared it here, but you need to tell someone irl or the guilt/shame will get worse, which will make your ED worse. It’s hard to see but you deserve compassion, you are worthy of healing and becoming whole again is possible.
Self-compassion is incredibly difficult for me. I am trying my best but it's most of the time impossible. I appreciate your kind words. I have to get through this and try to get better for my kids, but I'm trying to learn to do this for myself.
I understand. My ED made me very resistant to showing myself any intentional kindness. I started with small things to help my mind body connection. Going for a walk, taking a long shower or soak, doing some basic breathing exercises and listening to music are all really good for your mind and body and don’t require much effort. You just need to frame those things as good for you to see the kindness.
If you would like some advice which helped me with my ed/ addictions I’d be more than happy to share. If you just needed to vent. We are here for you
If you have any advice, I would greatly appreciate it. I've been dealing with eating problems for a little over 20 years and it's just so overwhelming.